Family are asses

So i had a little money to spend, blew a couple hundred on beer several weekends in a row. My mom's tripping cause she says 24 beers in a night for someone on meds is too much and she doesn't want to see me be an alcoholic. Went to jail for 5 days, got out and spent Christmas with the family. the next week on Wednesday had 6 beers thinking i'd get a little buzz since i hadn't drank in 10 days, didn't feel shit. then new years eve went with my sister to a concert and this was the second time i drank in the past 14 days. had 13 beers, got a nice buzz, had a good time. till i dropped my last 5 dollars and all hell broke loose. begged my sister for 3 bucks to get a beer since the ass working the gas station wouldn't sell me anymore after midnight so she put 10 bucks in my hand. here i'm thinking "wow she's being generous tonight". went back to the bar where the beer was 5x more expensive than at the gas station so i spent the 10 bucks. then asked her to buy me a burger since i didn't want her eating in front of me and she finally bought me a pack of cigarettes.

here it is jan 6 and i haven't had a drink since dec 31. so what? if i have the extra money i'll go drink, if i don't i'll go buy food like most regular people. big fucking deal ma i turned 21 this year, give me a fucking break i'm in college what the fuck do you expect me to do? mission work in fucking namibia or some shit?

so to make a long story short i blew 30 bucks yesterday on "paying back" somebody who frankly i didn't owe a fucking dime too.

so i got three coin sorting machines for christmas and i decided to keep one and take the other 2 back. called my mom asking her for the receipt and she gives me some shit about all the thought she put into that gift and how i begged her to get me one. so the fuck what i have fucking 3, what do you want me to do with it? sit it here to collect dust? she said "well i'll just give you money"

"well fine i'll take it." "oh on second thought you might just go blow it on beer so i'll just buy you groceries".

i told her it's none of her god damn business what i spend it on, but if i need food it sure is hell isn't going to beer. "well you know i just don't want you to buy beer" cut the shit ma. that's some fucking stupidity right there, i told you 2 times i need it to buy food. big deal i drank two times in 14 days. i haven't had a beer in 6 days now, so i told her to cut the shit. if i have the extra money i might go have a nice time with myself. if i need food, i won't drink for a month. maybe have one with a meal on occasion.

she's gone to my friend fucking with his mind, him fucking with hers feeling their ignorant heads with propaganda about me drunk, and going to everybody telling them not to give me money or i'll spend it on beer. talked to my sister and she said "well it's obviously true, you spent that ten bucks i gave you." yeah but who the fuck gives money to a drunk when the bar is still open and doesn't say "i want my change back, just buy 1 beer"? fucking shit, she was there at my birth, i've known her all my life, didn;t know she'd trip about 10 bucks if i bought a few beers with it.

then my family on christmas day tells me i can't drink any beer. my mom the Merry fucking Saint of Guadulupe almost, some sort of professed Mother Teresa drank a beer that day.

who the fuck does that holding a beer in their hand say, "You know man, hold on one sec (gulp gulp gulp), oh yeah, you know you shouldn't drink alcohol. it's bad for the liver" and i'm thinking what the fuck is that in your hand?

so it's all bullshit. my mom didn;'t need to know about new years eve any way, none of her fucking business and my sister has no place spreading gossip about me to the family either.

so here i am just calling my idiot family tonight to say goodnight before they go to bed, turned on the heat for about 10 minutes, and by the end of the 1st phone call i was in such a rage i had to turn the heat off i was starting to get so hot, almost had steam coming out of my ears. warmed up about 2 degrees in here but my family knows my buttons and they love to press them all day long. it's all bullshit. i'm fucking 21 years old. yeah i'm gonna have a beer if i want it.