I have lurked this thread for years. I was in quest--remember being pulled from class to watch the shuttle blow up. I was learning algebra in 6th grade by a high school kid they brought in-on fridays in sixth grade a lady cam in to teach a few of us russian---which i thougt was odd my whole life. We did all sorts of societal ordering and world problem exercises.. wven did a mock united nations. Looking back all seems way advanced for my age. Also they humiliated me in music so I have never pursued but it is the thing that calls to me the most. I think i was marked and watched from birth. Im 37 now. And the last 6bmonths have beem surreal... anyway-i went into GATE or the gifted and talented i called it the goofy and twisted cause thats what it was. I was this 110 pd weakling in all 9th grade classes lunch--basically a seventh grade ninth grader. So had special classes most of the day-but was fucked as was marked by my peers-and the other goofyand twisters-were just not the most social types... but my G&T classes were like in the library tons of brainstorming lwft and right brain shit. Restarting whatever dissections heary after pithing-tiny writing-mythology as if it were religious-current event-patterns and shakespeare and Jung personality types-i continued till mid eith grade and dumbed down to my peers---found pot -a girlfriend-and been coasting forbyears. Life in Thailand now 7 years--and end dwcemver it became clear a frame had been set-the wife turned on me and we were in bliss day beforw---i am followed harassed and i look crazy if I say anything. My kids arw stuck amd many lives are being ruined. No one tells the truth and if I ask to much chaos ensues. I am a prisoner in my life-and any one close seems to turn on me also. Im ramnbling. Anyway-i started this shit which I know is paet and parcel of why always had a feeling--and now just my level of awareness without talking or communicating our plight-arouses the caretaker. I do wish I was nuts.from SLC Utah-was goofy twister there at bonneville jr high 86-88---Rh-Green eyes-not a dumbshit and I can still critically think for myself. So