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Original Message
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This I write not to me. Not to you. And not to me.
Or is it I. Eye will not. Naught.
I feel like I am being guided
The breadth of the outspoken Mountain may or may not Collapse?
The wind of breath guided the sailboat. It may have been why I was blown away.
There was a fire.
*coughing*
When I smoke a cigarette in the morning it reminds me of the morning.
Unfortunately. The fire fades.
Ash.
Smoke
*cough*
exhale. Blown. Outspoken Breath. It's what guided the sailboat with a nautical mile.
which was maybe at the start. the eye of the storm. that's what it was.
Island. I found it. It's me. I am here. I know it.
Abuse
Fire.
Pig. Oink. Pink. Run. Hide. Wheat. Grass and Tree.
hide little pig. run and hide. (see the sailboat heading to the island, fire on the beach)
run little pig, or you will be dinner.
The birds watch, confused. the wind blows.
Ironically, the opposite direction of the sailboat.
Fate is Destiny confided in the sand.
Fire burns.
*cough*
observation of clouds. Stars. From above.
Rain. clouds.
Grey.
why?
so bleak.
I can't see anymore.
fire. is drowned.
the seats of wood break away.
The dawn rises. Before was night.
Worms crawl. Go deep inside.
The roots grow.
maggots form.
flies,
Butterfly,
Sea, the shore.
Sailboats arrive.
Men march onshore.
Upon arrival they discover.
A cave.
Deep in the cave, they dig. dig more and more.
they see the stars and the shore.
mud in the face doesn't matter.
keep digging deeper and deeper.
Guided by the firefly.
Torches on the wall.
Puddles of mud.
reflecting fortune.
Keep going, let's keep digging.
Hold on.
Let's go back.
WHERE?
Sailboat.
Captain:"!!! YOU SEE THE SHORE!!!!!!?!!
Crew: YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
*sailboat crashes on sand*
HURRRAHHHHH
crew and sailboat crash on the island.
[back to the cave]
keep digging!! Something is happening on the surface!
reflection is not too obvious.
it bounces the light from the torch on the wall, in the cave, the mud, sparkles, glimmers, and embraces the pupil.
at that moment in the cave, you know the sailboat is crashing on the island.
You see the cave, the reflection of the torchlight in the mud and puddles bouncing, you see the stars through the cavern.
you also know you have to keep digging.
you are the pupil. to the center of the earth.
you keep digging. knowing. that if you could only get so much closer to the center.
*FIRE ON THE BEACH*
*SAILBOATS CRASHING*
*CREWS EMBARKING*
*FIGHTING THE LANDS*
*CONQUERING*
keep digging
you know. if only they don't find the hole in the cave, hold on what's that?
it's whiteness in a pinpoint formation of absolute darkness. It's blinding.
blinded by the lighting you fall back.
knowing nothing at all.
clash with the fires on the shores.
men of the cave fight the men from the boat
They fight and fight and fight. so much death.
Knowing that if only you could dig deeper.
Thinking if steered the sailboat a different way.
Forget it.
STars.
so bright above. and in the cave below too.
BLINDING!!!!!!!!!!
ABOVE AND BELOW!!
SO BRIGHT!!!!!!!!!!
it does not regret, it's not vengefulness, it's not revenge, it's not spitefulness, it's gratitude.
Graciously. Into the depths of the cavern. Why not?!?!?
Let's gooooo deeeeeeeepeeeeerrrrrrrr!!!!!!!
so much success. So much depth. No resistance. Absolute.
Dead END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sideways? upwards? downwards?
where do I GO?!
EYE GO?!?!
NORTH? WEST?! EAST? SOUTH?!!
HOW DO I FIGURE IT OUT!?!!
WHY SO MUCH PRESSURE TO FIGURE OUT WHO I AM?!!?!
DO I HAVE to give you the answer?!!!!!!!!??
red.
(RED)
Color RED
SO MUCH COLOR RED
omg. no RED~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
red. brown. black.
black.
Red.
death reviving from the earth
worm.
Expanding.
let's go upwards.
worm. going through the dirt.
so much dirt.
so much dirt.
finally. sand.
let's go, it's only sand.
sand.
sand
sand
sand
finally. we are above the ground.
and it's DAY!!!
it's daytime.
a different brightness
okay, it's time for breakfast.
let's go get served.
there's the pork from before. Its original form, pink. FLesh
so much love. too much actually.
let's forgive and forget all of the above. It's to discover what we actually are.
OKay,
Let's eat it. That tastes delicious.
Alright. Let's rest. Sleep. Eat.
HUNT. EAT. RESt. SLEEP. HUNT EAT. REST SLEEP!!!
SEX. KIDS. GENERATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
GENERATION!
*CITIES BUILT*
NEWYORKTOKYOTORONTOBEIJINGVANCOUVERHONGKONGALBERTA
BOUNCE!!!!!!!!!!
Cities form. Homes. Streets. Roads. Pedestrians. Lamposts. Garbage bins. Bums. Graffiti.
Art. Reborn. Hope.
Children playing. Sand Castles. Playgrounds. Tire Swings. Cars. Fireworks
Cutting the Lawn
Open Roads
Sunsets
Washing the Dishes
Dreaming
Shoveling the Driveway.
Recycling
Cleaning up
Roadways.
Monitoring
Parking Lots
Security
Grocery Stores
Movie Theaters
Sports Arenas
Monuments
Destruction
Monuments
Destruction
Monuments
Destruction
Monuments
Realize
collapse.
We are on the beach
Just a sandcastle. so silly.
Let us go back into the cave from before.
Familiarity. The reflection of light bounced off the puddle in the mud in the caverns.
back toward the blinding light.
Let's keep going.
it was just an illusion. Nothing from before makes any sense.
Nonsense. No such thing. No wars. No Bombs. No Destruction. No Abuse. No Deception. No Betrayal. No Seduction.
Deeper let's go. Hopefully we hit sand and not mud.
Okay, it's sand. so much sand. sand and sand and sand and sand.
That may be the opposite of quicksand. Oh no. Does that mean I want to escape?
Hold on... Did we sand?
But we do not want quicksand?
Oh no!!! let us climb back up!!
The men on the shore!!!!!!! FIGHTING THE MEN FROM THE CAVE. THAT IS US!!!
LET's Go.
Luckily for us, we see those rreflections from before. So obvious. Laughable, really.
The puddles of mud reflect torchlight from the cavern walls that have ambiance from the starry night above. So silly if we couldn't see it. so much light coming from above. unlike before.
I am thirsty. As we follow the light we can hear the water running, naturally. Must be a river. Finally, we escape the cavern we once thought was our absolute safeness.
So thirsty. There it is, the river, let us drink. Oh, so good. The water quenches all of the thirsts I have ever had. So pure, so clean, so pristine. You can taste the individual particles of h20. It is so refreshing. Never before have you been so refreshed. Which reminds you......
Of that Pig roasting on the fire!!!!!!
So hungry. Let's go eat...
You smell the flesh grilling on the fire.
You hear the grease sizzling.
You can taste it before it even touches your tongue.
OH NO!!!!!!!!!!! BeFORE YOU EAT, A MAN From before THAT CRASHED ON THE SHORE STABS YOU THROUGH THE THIGH. A SPEAR, RIGHT THROUGH THE THIGH!!!!
OUCH. Is this what the pig felt?!?!
Oh shit, what happened?
Where was I, before this happened??
Was it cave, the city? the stars? the sailboat? the cave? the river? oh yes, the river. the water. that's it.
Crawling to the river, drinking the water, so good. the water. Each individual droplet of water that touches your tongue absorbs into your entire being. You begin to feel alive again. Maybe?
you lay there. Tongue in the water. not care one bit. just let it hang out in the river. absorbing as much as you can. drink it. drink it. drink it. drink it. drink it. feel alive. sleep. eat. drink. eat. sleep. drink. eat. sleep. drink. eat.
That's not eating, that's just sand. Yucky.!!!!!!
I want to eat!!!!!
Owww my leg!!!
You hear the voice of an angel.
It is soft at first. then abrasive.
"Here you go"
"don't be so silly"
*You wake up in your apartment*
"Omg" wtf was that dream?!?!
You stand up from your slumber staring at yourself in the mirror.
You wink.
Haha. you giggle. what a funny dream.
I can't even remember what it was, but I remember it was funny.
You proceed to the bathroom. Shower.
Dress
*giggle again* (not sure why)
let's go. this day will be good.
you step outside. Sun shining in your face.
"Feels good to be alive".
.....
On the way to work. Everything seems so simple. You do what you are told. There are no questions asked. Or so it is said. You bump into the wall. Ouch, Wtf. Lol.
You bounce back. omg Wtf is going on. you smash through the glass and fly towards the goal you never knew. WTF!!!!!!!!!!!! IS GOING ON!?!?!?!
omg.. wtf's not another dream.
I thought I was just going to work.
Why doesn't this work?
Is this some sort of game?
Is it a monopoly?
Surely it is. Obviously.
Oh god, it's the game of life!
Religion?
Oh no, not religion, that would bring us back to the sands.
No!!!!
NOT THE ISLAND WITH CAVE!!!!
OMG, THE WATER, THE PUDDLES, THE CAVERN WALLS!!! THE TORCHLIGHT SHOULD BE BOUNCING OFF THE CAVERN WALLS!!!
OH NO!!! the fire on the shore!!!!!
Oh there it is, the fire on the shore.
it's okay.
Whew.
It's from before. I am still on the Island from before.
Okay, this makes sense now. We are at a fire. Having fun. Eating marshmallows. I must have eaten some special mushrooms. That's why I was in the trees, and saw the shore, with the sail boat, and the stars, and the fire, and the pig, and the pork, the fire, the meat, the water. yeah. that's why.
It makes so much sense. It is so obvious. I was simply having dinner with my friends at a fire on a beach in the sand. My parents are nearby, and their parents are also nearby. It makes so much sense now. The Family Tree. The Ancestral language of the earth. The Water, the Mountains. The Sea.
Oh no, not the sea again. Is that a Cluster of Ships?!?!? Oh no. Not another invasion!!!!!!!!
Haha, just kidding that was the palm tree leaf reflecting the fire.
oopsies. Maybe I drank too much tonight? Haha!
Luckily, I am just on vacation with my family on this island near a fire where we are eating a delicious dinner and drinking water from the stream while staring at the stars.
Oh, it is so perfect!
*BANG**CRASH**BOOM*
"oh no!!!"
wtf was that?!?!
it's coming from over there!!!!!!!!!
pointing toward the volcano. *ERUPTION*
WHOA!!!!
LOOK AT THAT VOLCANO SPITTING FIRE TO THE SKY!!!!
WHAT A SPECTACLE!!!!!
(oh no, the fire may splash onto the ships that crashed the shore from before)
would that be so bad?
Let's go see what's that about.
Wait, hold on. I am still unsure from before.
I followed the light that led to the cavern. It was so natural.
I could see the perfect lantern at the base of the cave. Then the puddles of water in the mud that reflected the further torchlight was just so enchanting.
I can do this again, this way? Toward the Volcano?
Or should I just go back toward the cave?!
Wait... Wasn't I also following the light away from the cave when I realized I was in quicksand?!?!?!!?!!!!
OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OOOOHHH HHNNNNNNOOOOO!!!!!!!!
*ripping pain*
*wake up in bed in city*
COFFEE!!! omg coffee! i need coffee to wake up.
WTf was that dream?
I just want to live my best life :D
haha.
Just going to shower before I go to get my morning coffee.
It's time to go to work. No problem, at least I have my coffee.
wtf was that dream from before?
I feel like I was on an Isl......... *honk**HONK* ((((((((CCCCAAAARRRR))))) WHOA!!!
WATCH OUT YOU FUCKING CRAZY FUCK!!! *oh shit i spilt some of my coffee*
*aw fuck, it was the next sip, the best part!!!*
oh shit, fuck it. "It's fine, be more careful next time".
*plastic smile*
shit... frigging top of my shoe just clipped the sidewalk, tripped a bit.
spilled more of my coffee. shit.. there's the gutter. look at all that grime between the slime and metal. Yuck. FUCK!!!! MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!
It's okay, The next sip of coffee is so good. The best you have had in weeks. That perfect combo of warmth, sweet, bitter, grit, and ground. Yummy. That moment you were waiting for for like 4 weeks. Fuck. 4 more weeks until (insert obligation)!!!
FUCK!!!!
that STAIR CASE!!!!! OMG. So many steps. I may as well be in......... QUICKSAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh right. the sand. yes. the sand, the good sand though. thousand
the one from before. the one that let me escape. from all that misery. all the hate. all that despair.. omg it's so good. quickly going through the sand, toward the purest water of all waters. It must exist. it must. I SWEAR. THAT's what makes the sand QUICK!!!!!
THOUSAND QUICKSAND
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