The Future of your country?..ask and I will tell you,...

I ask myself why I am slowly starting to write here again at this time. To be honest, I don't know exactly, but something told me to do this once in a while, although it will be less frequent than in previous long years from 2005. During that time I had happy years but also my downs. The last year has been tough for me with 2 weeks in hospital last August after a double cerebral infarction. A month after I came back from the hospital, my wife was rushed to the same hospital and underwent emergency surgery for a tumor in her intestine. Unfortunately, there were plenty of complications during that operation. Moments later, she woke up in the intensive care unit. Everything the chief surgeon told me went past me. The way an assistant doctor looked into my eyes told me more than all those medical terms from the chief surgeon. I knew it wouldn't get any better. Many told me to think more positively, and of course I never said that to my wife because I didn't want to deprive her of hope. It became an agony for her and for me to have to watch it every day. I will never forget that look of that assistant doctor without him saying something. Long story short she has spent the last 3 months at home with me and the dogs. A golden retriever and a small westie. In the beginning she could still go to our garden, which is full of butterfly plants. She adored butterflies, especially the Monarch butterfly. Outside the weather was lovely every day between 25 and 30 degrees Celsius. Until she stopped going to the garden because she couldn't anymore. On June 1st she passed away around 6pm with me and the dogs by her side. The garden door was open and an hour after she left, a monarch butterfly flew into the living room and sat on our golden retriever's head. I knew it was good and she was put out of her misery and found her peace. Again why I'm writing all this here now, I really wouldn't know. Maybe she whispered to me. And about that gratitude I wrote about in a previous post,

It's better to lose something, better to lose than never to have it.

Take care you all,
GM

She wanted me to play this on her funeral..

Dear friend,

I am still here on the backgound sometimes..
although not in the best shape anymore. The clock is ticking not just for me but all of us. I saw the situation in France that we are seeing now much earlier. Somewhere I wrote it down here, although I expected it sooner. It will lead to new elections in France. There will be a new President and new laws will be written with a different Pen. The violence will spread to other European countries. In America, too, a new or perhaps rather an old wind will blow. Where the churches are empty, they will fill again.

Take care GM