Anyone Abstaining here?? If so, Why

My bad, thought we were going to talk about Absinthe.

Seriously.. i am. I have no idea why. Over a year.

... sex, it just seem, [well, not really digusting for me] kind of un natural for me ... Even imaginging do it makes me uneasy and uncomfortable so i avoid it as much as i can. Its kinna hard to avoid it given the smut that's all over everywhere but i manage. It seems everywhere you turn there's a trap set to corrput our minds and distract us from thinking, studying and researching more meaninful things..

Seriously.. i am. I have no idea why. Over a year.

to have control over my energies and powers. i masturbate when i chose in the manner i chose. if i have sex with a person i am controlled by them or am controlling them.
before you know it it's 25 years latter and i'm beating someone over the head or am being beaten over the head with a grill cleaning brush over being five minutes late from the store and i/we weigh 250 pounds and have realised that life is complete shit,and i'm now unfuckable and can't fuck
and i stink like apples and 70 year old sweat. all because i wanted to have sex one day.

to have control over my energies and powers. i masturbate when i chose in the manner i chose. if i have sex with a person i am controlled by them or am controlling them.
before you know it it's 25 years latter and i'm beating someone over the head or am being beaten over the head with a grill cleaning brush over being five minutes late from the store and i/we weigh 250 pounds and have realised that life is complete shit,and i'm now unfuckable and can't fuck
and i stink like apples and 70 year old sweat. all because i wanted to have sex one day.

Yes. My husband left me. Not interested in signing up to be lied to again. I don't have extra-marital relations, so that doesn't leave any other options.

I can't survive another betrayal.

... sex, it just seem, [well, not really digusting for me] kind of un natural for me ... Even imaginging do it makes me uneasy and uncomfortable so i avoid it as much as i can. Its kinna hard to avoid it given the smut that's all over everywhere but i manage. It seems everywhere you turn there's a trap set to corrput our minds and distract us from thinking, studying and researching more meaninful things..

Why did you choose that avatar?

there are others who TRY not to repeat their old mistakes but keep running into new ones.

finally, there are those who TRY not to commit ANY mistake IN THE FIRST PLACE. -- that is the ideal I urge you to adopt.

Yes, because I don't want to have to change for some woman.

I guess there's no point in caring about what I look like, fixing my hair, makeup and all that.. Nobody cares anyway.

No one notices me.

Yep

Once you find there's something better, plain ol ordinary sex just doesn't do it for you anymore.

I guess there's no point in caring about what I look like, fixing my hair, makeup and all that.. Nobody cares anyway.

No one notices me.


TRUE CHANGE


B: Write on your list, to be me, to be me, that's the only thing that
appears on your list.

Q: I know that's all I have to do; I just still physically want things.

B: To be ME! Write it on the list, to be me.

Q: Got it.

B: All right, now, listen: all the things that you refer to as your
career, they are not your career. Any goal you want, that you have listed
before, it is not your goal. Projects, things, whatever they may be, they
are not what you want. You have only one career, you have only one goal,
and that is to be you. THAT is your career, that is your *purpose*, it is
your mission, it is your path, it is the ONLY thing that you need to do, is
to be you. Now how you choose to express being you, may be many of those
things you wrote on that list. To sing, to act, to do this, to do that, to
do this project, to do that project, so on and so forth, but they are not
your goals, they are not your career. You are your career, you, you, you,
that's it; it is the only one you have ever had, have now or will ever
have. All of you, it's the only career you have, the only point in being
this you is to be this you as fully as you can.

So all of these ideas that you typically call careers, goals, these are
simply /modalities/ of expressing the career of being you, that's your
career. These are just ways of expressing it, that's all they are, that's
all they are; they are not things to be attracted, they are modes of
expressing the joy of being you. There is no reason to do them other than
that, there is no reason to do them because you think that doing it will
bring you something. That is short-circuiting their ability to do so. You
do not do the things you do because they will have an effect; you do the
things you do because they are the result, they are the effect of being
fully you.

Q: Well, I guess what it is is that I want a life that is different than
doing anything mundane whatsoever...

B: Listen to your /definition/; there is no such thing as a boring
situation.

Q: I know it's my perception of it.

B: Yes it is, and I understand what you mean, but all you have to do is
just be you, believe me, knowing you, it will be unlike anything else's
likeness. So if you spent the time and energy worrying that you might
accidentally do something that is mundane, where do you think all of your
energy is going? Into being mundane.

Q: Into being mundane.

B: Yes, and that is still only being created by your definition of it, it
still only /appears/ to be mundane because that is where your focus is.
So let all that go, you don't have to /try/ to avoid being mundane, just be
yourself and you'll be ecstatic and everything in your life will be
reflective of being ecstatic. It can not be by definition any other way if
you're just being you, the true you cannot, by definition, be mundane to
you. The only way you can experience the so-called block or, what you are
calling, stretches of mundane time are because you are trying to avoid
creating them and thus, paradoxically, you fill your life with that.

Q: I know.

B: Because you are thinking that you have to cross that gulf to get to
/something/ that represents an ability to finally express who and what you
are; when all you have to do is just express who and what you are in
whatever way you want to. But don't make those things the goals, it is not
a goal to be able to express yourself that way, it is your natural spin-off
expression of just being you, it will unfold naturally if you just be you.
And every moment, whatever situation is presented to you, just be YOU as
best you can in that situation, and everything will spin off and unfold and
opportunities will come to you that will allow you to continue to express
yourself in ways that are representative of YOU!

Q: Actually I do that a lot of the time and there are a lot of wonderful
things happening.

B: I know that you have chosen to do that, the question is, why don't you
allow yourself to always do that? Because you have a definition that says
there should be gaps. You have a definition of things that creates the
appearance of gaps, blocks, whatever you want to call them.

Q: I have to work hard to pay for the things that I want, probably?

B: Did I say that?

Q: No, but I'm saying... I'm trying to think what that block or belief
might be.

B: All right, you are attempting to define the idea.

Q: I couldn't just manifest that without some work, you know some ethic
involved or something.

B: Remember this, again, whatever classically, colloquially might, oh
well, by some people on your planet, perish the thought, be defined as work
and might actually be enjoyable to you, sometimes.

Q: It is.

B: Then trust that only those forms of work that won't be "work" to you
will be what your kit contains. Again, you are attempting to think of
yourself as a collection of parts that have to somehow be forced together
to work correctly, when you already work flawlessly if you would just let
yourself do so. By discontinuing to assume that you could contain
something superfluous that gets in your way, an extra component that would
force you to have to do something that isn't natural to get what is
naturally yours, that doesn't make any sense. You understand?

Q: Yes.

B: It does not make "creational" sense that you would have to do something
that isn't part of your ecstasy to create ecstasy in your life. It makes
no sense.

Q: I know and I just can't make that shift, that little....

B: Yes, you can.

Q: Well, I WILL. You bet I will.

B: I'm not going to bet on it. The idea is, however, is that you need to
really see every single moment as a part of your ecstasy and not an
interruption in it, no matter how it appears. Remember the first, as you
say, rule of thumb, you can not discern that you have changed by keying off
how your reality looks, you have to determine you have changed by how you
respond to your reality, no matter how it looks. Then is when you will
allow your reality to *reflect* the true change that you are willing to
demonstrate, by responding according to way you prefer to, no matter how it
works, that's the paradox. If you really keep reacting the same way
because it keeps looking the same, you haven't really changed. But if you
choose to respond differently, because you know you are different, that is
what makes the difference in reality, that's what allows it to shift. But,
as soon as you say, "Oh, I didn't get what I expected, I thought I was
different, I thought I had changed, but I didn't see what I wanted to see,
OUT THERE."

Q: No, I realize the world of effect, and believe me there have been some
major changes in terms of my perception...

B: Oh, I believe you.

Q: ...and I just have more work to do that's all.

B: I am not discounting what you have been able to understand, but you are
the one that raised the issue.

Q: I want it /all,/ that's all.

B: You are all of it, you are all of it, notice the differentiation, I
didn't say, "you have it all."

Q: No.

B: I said, "you are all of it." You have to allow, here's the paradox,
you have to allow /what is/ to be perfect before /what is/ can become something
more. If you don't love yourself as you are, TOTALLY, UNCONDITIONALLY, you
cannot become the next you. And, unconditional doesn't mean
unconditionally except for this one condition. It means unconditionally,
you must accept what is, before what is can transform into what will be, or
what the next what is, can be.

Q: OK, thank you so much.

B: We thank you.

I probably should start another post, but has anyone here ever found therapy successful in repairing a relationship?

So, what is there?

One of the best parts of this FUBAR school called LIFE.. iS SEX :)

Hot sex, cold sex , dirty sex, sweaty sex, muddy sex, fireplace sex, in a tree sex, under water sex, bedtime sex, good morning sex, lunch quickie sex, beach sex, rain sex, train sex, drunk sex, hours of sex, mere seconds of sex.

The list is very long , but if your here on earth anyways , might as well have a GREAT TIME at it :)

So, what is there?


Seek, and ye shall find!


Tantra, for starters.
Then you can move into "otherworldly" practices such as Astral sex.

You just have to want more than what we have been taught.