Am I losing my mind OR Am I switching to the DARK SIDE?!

Happened to stumble across a file of over 10,000 different US MILITARY TRAINING MANUALS for ALL SORTS OF VARIOUS THINGS; (hand to hand combat, electronic warfare / cyber warfare, military police law and order operations, US internment camps and processing, handling and evaluation of Prisoners of War, etc etc etc.) and well on one hand I was storing all these on my kindle since I have a little handmade pocket solar generator for iPod's and iPad's and such or for cell/smart phones and when TSHTF I feel these are going to be very important manuals to have in one's possession..aren't we supposed to be aware of the TACTICS OF THE ENEMY? So what I was wanting to do was study the shit out of these manuals right..tear through them..soak them in..absorb the knowledge..and then possibly go to one or three of these Blackwater/XE Civilian Military Training Force programs and then get all that experience under my belt and THEN go talk to a recruiter of the Marines or Air Force or some shit as a 22yr old Civilian off the streets coming in and saying, 'look, i have NO intention of being BROKEN so that I can be MOLDED into the SOLDIER that YOU want me to be; one willing to simply TAKE ORDERS for the rest of my human life..I have nothing but respect, honor and loyalty to this country and what it ONCE stood for and what it can STILL stand for if enough people LIKE ME are willing to STAND UP and to FIGHT for the rights that are SO RAPIDLY being taken from us with every passing day.'

I talked to a recruiter once when I was 19 and it put nothing but a sour taste in my mouth because of the INCREDIBLY CONDESCENDING attitude the recruiter had towards me and I mean I'm about RESPECT..in front of me is not an Army Lieutenant..in front of me is another HUMAN BEING, a MAN like myself..and I will treat HIM with the same respect with which I expect to be treated in return..especially because if I can prove to them I know HOW to do these jobs (i.e Military Police, Cyber Warfare, Psy-Op's, etc) and if I can PASS any exams they wish to give me proving to them I KNOW the job then I would expect that they could just hire me as a private contractor with the same pay, perks and benefits of being in the Military (insurance, tuition, college, career, etc) without the bullshit of having to be BROKEN..because if I am BROKEN all the SKILLS and TALENTS and ABILITIES I possess will be BROKEN as well and I will be of NO USE but just another BODY, another EXPENDABLE DRONE in the WAR / POLICE / NANNY STATE MACHINE..I serve NO one MAN except JESUS CHRIST AND THE LORD GOD THE FATHER MY SUPREME CREATOR SOURCE; not any of these ANNUNAKI/REPTILIAN/ELOHIM/LUCIFERIAN/BAAL/NIMRODIAN/BABYLONIA​N/ILLUMANIST 'idols'and I'm ON to their GAME and the best way to play is BY THE RULES to INFILTRATE a BROKEN SYSTEM so that LIGHT might FLOOD IN and be MADE LIKE NEW.

There is a NEW KINGDOM. A NEW WORLD. A NEW LIFE. A NEW EVOLUTION OF HUMAN BEINGS SET TO DAWN ON THIS BEAUTIFUL AND SINISTER PLANET AND IT'S SOON TIME. PREPARE FOR THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS AT HAND. My KINGDOM is not of this WORLD, nor this COUNTRY..but of another WORLD..another place..another LIFE in THE WORLD TO COME. :) :) Those of you with ears LET THEM HEAR and those of you with EYES let them SEE the GLORY and the POWER and the MIGHT that is in THE LORD OUR GOD. Put all RELIGIOUS DOCTRINE, ALL DOGMATIC IDEOLOGIES, ALL DIVISION AND STRIFE AND TENSION AND IDOLS ASIDE; YOUR ECONOMIES YOUR GOVERNMENTS YOUR SYSTEMS YOUR COURTS; and HEAR the WORD and the LAW and the MIGHT of GOD, THE SUPREME CREATOR, THE HEAVENLY FATHER/MOTHER, PROVIDER, SOURCE! :)

I will not HIDE IN THE SHADOWS..IN FEAR OF MY OWN UNWORTHINESS AND MY OWN DOUBTS AND HESITATIONS AND CONCERNS..THE SAFEGUARD and SANCTUARY of MY OWN SINISTER THOUGHTS. MY SINS PILED HIGHER TO THE HEAVENS. BUT THANK THE LORD THOSE HAVE BEEN WIPED CLEAN JUST AS HIS BLOOD IS POURED OUT UPON THE WHOLE WORLD. ALL WHO HAVE EARS LET THEM HEAR THAT THIS IS A FREE GIFT AND YOU DONT NEED A CHURCH TO SAVE YOU OR WATER AND A PRAYER TO BE SAVED. But do not let your right hand know what your left hand is doing..when you give let it be done in SECRET, JUST AS YOUR FATHER WHO SEES IN SECRET, will reward you in SECRET.

Worship the LORD OUR GOD in SPIRIT and in TRUTH; not deception and fallacy and religious doctrine created by MAN to divide and conquer and enslave GODS CHILDREN. There is a WAR coming. It's already upon us. And it's time for GOD'S CHILDREN to STAND UP! TO PAVE THE WAY! TO SHOUT FROM THE ROOF TOPS! TO SCREAM FROM OUR CARS AS WE PASS BY EACH OTHER ON THE HIGHWAYS IN OUR CLOGGED INDUSTRIALIZED CITIES and shout the GOOD NEWS that the END is really trully FINALLY almost HERE and to be AWARE. BE AWAKE. BE ON GUARD.

BE PREPARED. WITH GREAT ANTICIPATION AND JOY AND FASTING AND PRAYER AND SUPPLICATON AND GRIEVING that the GLORIOUS DAY OF THE LORD is finally ready to DAWN upon this dark, dark WORLD. ;) Wake up and GOOD MORNING, AMERICA! :) The CHANGE and the HOPE you've been waiting for is right AROUND the CORNER. :) He'll be coming ROUND the MOUNTAIN when we come! :) Let's get ready because this train is comin' just around the bend and we better all be ready to hop on and get the HECK OUT OF DODGE!

Nothing but LOVE and LIGHT for SHILLS AND TROLLS AND BIBLETARDS alike! Love THY NEIGHBOR, AS WELL AS YOUR ENEMIES; for THAT IS HOW YOUR LOVE MIGHT BE MADE PERFECT just as YOUR FATHER (the ONE IN HEAVEN)'S LOVE is PERFECT :) Let the LOVE and the LIGHT and the POWER and the GLORY and the SPIRIT of CHRIST and the SPIRIT of TRUTH and the SPIRIT of LOVE reign in your lives and RADIATE all that YOU SET OUT TO DO so that your LIVES MIGHT BE THE EXAMPLE of THE WAY, THE TRUTH and the LIFE that is the POWER and GOSPEL and GOOD NEWS of JESUS CHRIST and GOD the FATHER. :)

I LOVE ALL OF YOU but I LOVE JESUS CHRIST AND GOD THE FATHER FIRST. :) GO NOW IN PEACE TO LOVE AND SERVE THE LORD!