I hear you. It can get frustrating - especially when you're seeking the BIG answers.

If you only want to talk to spirit guides, etc., then there are specific paths you can take, like the path of the shaman. All good, but if you want to know why you're here and the big questions like that...

I wrote this on another thread, I hope it helps. IMHO, it's the *only* way if you truly want to understand it ALL (it happened to me when I least expected it):

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I think you simply need to be a genuine seeker to find real answers.

I could recommend Ramana Maharshi (whom I do recommend), or U.G. Krishnamurti, or Buddhist teachings, but no matter what they say, it's just words.

The real answer comes from within, but how to find the answer is the trick. I tried meditation, I tried silencing the mind - which might work for some - but not for me. In fact, many teachers have sais that these are merely tricks, they don't lead to complete understanding (not sure I agree 100%, but worth noting):

Some people, not knowing the essential emptiness of good and evil, think practical cultivation of mind means to sit rigidly immobile, subduing mind and body, like a rock placed on top of grass.
This is ludicrous.
That is why it is said that followers cut off confusion in every state of mind, yet the mind that does the cutting off is a brigand. —Zen Master Chinul (1158-1210)

You are really unbound and actionless, self-illuminating and spotless already. The cause of your bondage is that you are still resorting to stilling the mind. —Ashtavakra Gita 1.15

Give up meditation completely but don't let the mind hold on to anything. You are free by nature, so what will you achieve by forcing the mind? —Ashtavakra Gita 15.20

The ignorant make a great effort to practise one-pointedness and the stopping of thought, while the wise see nothing to be done and remain in themselves like those asleep. —Ashtavakra Gita 18.33

The trick IMO is in seeking without caring whether or not you will find the answer. In other words, that your curiosity, your desire to KNOW goes beyond any guarantee of finding an answer.

I also think you need to be a skeptic. You need to have doubt, but at the same time, curiosity. The desire to know why we exist, to know if there is a meaning to life? etc. etc. must be insatiable.

But if you're quick to believe in something, then that "thing" becomes your reality, your paradigm. It's not real, it's just a belief.

When you know, you know. Consider the following:

"Truly a man will ever head for destruction in his ignorance.
His salvation lies in investigation alone." —Tripura Rahasya Chp III.2-3

"...the mind engaged in practical search for truth
is the surest means of emancipation." —Tripura Rahasya Chp VIII.5

I will tell you this, EVERYTHING is "God". Everything. You can even find answers in a toilet paper commercial if you are always seeking. You never know what will trigger an awakening.

If you seek, God will provide what you need and lead you in the right direction (if you listen to your gut). But you also need to be patient. If you need quick answers, then you will almost certainly not get far (without suffering that is). For whatever reason, suffering often leads to emancipation and is why, IMO, we are entering the End Times. It's really a wake up call to those who won't seek.

The late Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche once said (paraphrasing):

"If a student is too serious, the benevolent deities will make perfectly adequate teachers, but if the student is too frivolous, only the wrathful deities will be able to do the job."