Awareness and Contact With Reality
To watch everything inside of you and outside, and when there is something happening to you, to see it as if it were happening to someone else, with no comment, no judgment, no attitude, no interference, no attempt to change, only to understand. As you do this, youíll begin to realize that increasingly you are disidentifying from ďmeĒ.
St. Teresa of Avila says that toward the end of her life God gave her an extraordinary grace. She doesnít use this modern expression, of course, but what it really boils down to is disidentifying from her self. If someone else has cancer and I donít know the person, Iím not all that affected. If I had love and sensitivity, maybe Iíd help, but Iím not emotionally affected. If YOU have an examination to take, Iím not all that affected.
I can be quite philosophical about it and say, ďWell, the more you worry about it, the worse itíll get. Why not just take a good break instead of studyingĒ? But when itís my turn to have an examination, well, thatís something else, isnít it? The reason is that Iíve identified with ďmeĒ Ė with my family, my country, my possessions, my body, me. How would it be if God gave me grace not to call these things mine? Iíd be detached; Iíd be disidentified. Thatís what it means to lose the self, to deny the self, to die to self.
By: Anthony de Mello