Except that you would believe Jesus is your savior, when this is not the case. Now i have seen him often enough and the reality is he is around, as much as many other beings we would consider gods, but he is not the be all end all, thats not to say he wont help in ways, but he cant stop them coming for you... People needs to save themselves.

Drugs never help thats true enough, as much as the other things you said above, but if they want you, they will come, even if you have considered yourself out for years....Very hard to break every program, seems to be a daily struggle.

Will i ever be out?...all i can do is try every day to reconstruct myself, reconstruct my thoughts and actions to the best of my ability and awareness.