Im so tired with life... Please help me...Pray for me

Best advise so far to deal with the court thing. and i hope i can get thru with it not used to people with personalities like those in prison hopefully i can open some eyes and help someone who can help me in return. it all karma in the end to me tho.

+ 1

OP thru all your trials and heartache, you must remember one thing. There is an afterlife waiting for you, your being tested. DONT EVER FORGET THAT, EVER. On your darkest day, in the deepest darkest hole, never forget your life will end someday, it wont continue like this forever and the afterlife awaits you. Dont ever forget.

Just want to say it again and make it clear for all of you.
Thank you for your prayers blessing and advice.
Im really not the type of person to do what i did do.
And I always want to say in hopes of my karma that i bless everyone who has posted or even viewed this thread.
Thank you all and hopefully somebody in a similar situation will see this thread in the future so as it may to help them bless you if you find this helpfully

So once again I Thank you, I Bless you, and I Love you all.



and so others can put input cause we all want the same thing which is communication and compassion.

Last Edited by BlueBlunt*RedCherry*WhiteSmoke on 08/05/2011 07:29 PM

At least you didn't kill anyone, intentionally or not, it could be worse.

Derek
Hang in there friend! We all make mistakes and have our problems. You are not alone. I will send many good thoughts and prayers your way. You have a lot of life, love and good times ahead. If you could only see what God has in store for you! Its like riding a bike up a steep,, steep hill, but soon you will be at the top and be able to take a breath relax, and coast on the rest of the way, just don't stop pedaling keep moving forward and everything will take care of itself.

nancy

Women should breast feed their children.

Just sayin.

Bottle feeding is not the same thing, and failure to breast feed can induce behavior problems and mood disorders.

The modern age isn't all the wonder people think it is. We are still so very backwards.

Prayers sent

I truly agree with you that this world will get better this thread has completly changed my thoughts on life for the moment and i hope it last a while cause when i get in a single i can stay in it for a day to up to a week hopefully your kind words and prays will truley help me thank you

Thank you

can you supply a link to this? sounds interesting

cause im really enjoying reading what you all have to say.

Last Edited by BlueBlunt*RedCherry*WhiteSmoke on 08/05/2011 07:44 PM

Derek,
I agree 100% with what Susie so eloquently stated. Hang in there! I will keep you in my prayers. Call on God. Tell him you need him to get through this. He will give you the strength you need. Remember, you're never alone. He's always there for you, waiting for you to lean on him. He loves you so much. If you knew how much, you'd never touch another drug.

It sounds like you're ready to walk away from this mess you've gotten into and come clean. That's good! Just know, it won't be easy, but with God's help, you CAN do it. Tell him you need him, then follow his lead.

Love and prayers for you!
Kim

Google search.

I suspect a lot of mood disorders and behavior problems is bottle feeding.

Infants need that touch associated with feeding on breast milk.

It's imperative and I suspect having not been breast fed myself by my ignorant mother at my father's request that this was the source of many of my problems.

Failure to breast feed any mammal will have devastating consequences in psychological development. ANY MAMMMAL.

Devastating.

Both is okay. Bottle only is insanity.

i just read this and prayed to god both yahweh and yeshua.
Thank you And i believe now i can get thru this.

My prayers Derek.. stay strong and ride the wave ..the storm will pass

When praying.. remember, do not ask for what you want. Celebrate already having it and thank the creator and yourself for achieving it.
Live the emotions of having what you need and you will attract it to you.
THAT is how you pray folks.
Be greatful.

You made a stupid decision. It sucks but it's not the end of the world by any means. You'll get fines and drop about 5 grand on a lawyer and see no jail.

I totally agree with you. I have read many upon many of articles that state what you think and say affect your DNA.
I daily listen to the solfeggio frequencies or at least try to it tends to help. thank you and bless you friend

I'll pray for you Derek. You have a lot of living to do, so please stay away from drugs. Get closer to nature and enjoy its beauty.

I will try what im thinking about doing is on sunday im gonna spend the night over my girlfriends tell her I love her and whats really going on. then i guess on monday i should really get the help By admitting myself into a psychward. to stay away from the drugs and all that. Also by doing inpatient it will look better to the judge. I believe it will at least.

Last Edited by BlueBlunt*RedCherry*WhiteSmoke on 08/05/2011 08:07 PM

We're living right on the edge of a major change young man. There are a lot of people suffering but hanging on just to be here when everything changes. You need to be here too.

As for suicide, let me tell you something. If you really hate your parents and any brothers and sisters you may have, and anyone else that loves and cares about you, yeah, no big deal right? My son got into some fairly serious trouble when he was 16. Because events involved a stolen vehicle, he was charged as an adult. After being told by his lawyer to plead guilty and that he would be out in 18 months to 3 years, he plead guilty. At the time, there was a lot of bullshit about being soft on juvenile crime so for political reasons, this prick judge gave my son 15 years, with 7 or 8 suspended, in a state prison for adults in Maryland. The sentencing took place just after his 17th birthday.

I told him I was going to do whatever I could do to get him out of this hell hole as quickly and as early as possible but it was going to take some time. He had been in prison for about a month or so. A few days later, I got the call. My son hung himself in his cell. The apparently have a rule about not leaving juveniles in their cells alone, but that didn't matter. And where I always heard they don't allow things like belts in the cells, they let my son have his. This was in March of 1999.

I never recovered from the severe grief. I think it affected my immune system. I just never felt the same again. I ended up getting cancer and am barely hanging on myself. No matter how bad it may seem, remember that it can and always will eventually get better. Usually, better than you can ever imagine when you're right in the middle of the shit. If you ever end your life because you think you can't handle what YOU'VE gotten yourself into, you will be seriously harming and end up killing those that love you. The grief never really goes away.

So love yourself, damnit. And hang on. And don't you dare fuck over your parents and people that you may not even know love you. You understand me? Don't you dare even think about it.

That said, you are in my prayers, Derek. And make sure you are not only talking to your Creator, make sure you are listening. Calm your mind and listen. And have some gratitude KNOWING that all of Creation is on your side and be thankful that all this WILL pass.

God bless you, son. There is a bright future just over the next rise.

He will see that you are DOING something to change and not just TALKING about changing. Change now while your young because it's easier to before bad habits become too deeply ingrained. Choose good friends who don't do drugs.

Another thing.

Any mood can be altered.

Feeling down. Go for a swim. Go for a walk.

Skiing. Whitewater kayaking. Travel to a new place. Reputable friends who are going to have a positive influence. The military is an easy way to meet good people if you are not into church.

Any sport will let you focus on it, rather than things you would rather not have in the forethought of your mind.

Only if you change your name to "Bluecunt Redberry"

Will pray for you Derek.
You have an opportunity now to prove everyone wrong and change,Make them all proud of you.
Cut the drugs out of your life,pray to God,do well unto others and watch things improve.

Agree, and to do that you are going to need to learn to do peer selection(choosing who you associate with carefully, and parents are going to have to put their foot down on who you associate with, mine never did and never took the time to get to know who my friends were to be able to tell me who was going to get me into trouble or who wasn't).

It's what everyone does who stays out of trouble at your age, which very few people do.

Peer selection develops in some early and others after they get into trouble and realize the people they are associating with have a direct impact on the ability to avoid drug use and legal problems.

I am sorry for your lose and i bless you and hope life gets better for you too and thank you i will not commit suicide but i will check in a psych ward monday because i really need it and i can see that pretty clearly now.

Last Edited by BlueBlunt*RedCherry*WhiteSmoke on 08/05/2011 08:24 PM

Wow, I wish they could do something for you to help you, rather than put you in prison. Why don't you ask if you can get probation and rehab? If this is your first offense, you are young, and all. I will pray for you. Don't forget to talk to God yourself, too. He always prefers that personal touch, and is waiting to hear from anyone at any time. Ask him to give you wisdom and strength and to give you mercy and guidance with all that you are facing. You are so young, and it is hard for young people, especially males, as you are still growing up to age 25. Impulsiveness is a trait of youth, and it can get a person in way more trouble than they bargained for so quickly. You are still here, though, and you are smart enough to know what you did wrong, to know not to end your life, and to think about how others feel. You are also reaching out for help. All of those are positive qualities. Whatever happens, allow it to change you for the better. See if they can send you someplace for youth, rather than with adults, if you have to serve any time for it. And just be tough. Two things I will tell you that can help you if you get incarcerated... 1. Do NOT accept anything from anyone, whether it be help, protection, a cigarette, food, you name it. They will want you to pay it back later in a way you will dislike, and this is a trap that many fall into. I could give you more advice, but all I can say is, research the subject so that you know how to handle yourself - that is totally essential.