that paddling...it is a bitch

low level nde...sounds like

read you on them, search nde...it will help reading other peoples experiences, they will have advise that will comfort.

do NOT let it overwhelm you....there will be more

therapist?, i wouldn't, but that's after i went to 3 of them, if it's not in the book, they don't know anything.

talk to the father...believe in him, or don't...talk to him anyhow.