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these are about my youngest son:


FRIDAY, JANUARY 8, 2010
1 year ago today.



First let me just say HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD, I LOVE YOU!

It is funny, the days that stay burned in your memory. I can't tell you what day my graduation was or the day that I bought my house. I can vividly remember the days I found out I was pregnant and the day that my husband swept me off my feet.

One day that is burned in my memory until I die is January 8th, 2009. On that day not only did I find out that my youngest was a bouncing baby boy, but I found out that he had Spina Bifida, hydrocephalus, and possible Arnold Chiari II. Now God has worked in my life many many ways, but on this day, laying in a cold room, looking at my baby boy on a huge flat screen TV, God walked in and took my hand. The Doctor entered the room again, and told us she couldn't give us a prognosis and was sending us to a pediatric Nuero surgeon. She gave me a grim outlook. She began to offer abortion, I declined before she could even finish. She offered amnio, I again, declined. My baby boy was going to be just fine.

I am proud to say that on May 11th I gave birth to a gorgeous baby boy. He is now almost 8 months old and after 2 surgeries and a lot of TLC and even more Prayer he is doing wonderful and has exceeded all of the Doctors expectations. Believe in the power of prayer friends, it is amazing!

There are many times in our lives where we talk to God, but only when we need him. 4 years ago, that was me. Then things happen in life and God pushes you to trust him. It is strange how the easy way out most time is the wrong way. Being the bigger person, taking the high road, doing what is right, is usually the hardest thing to do. I cannot tell you the relief that you feel, when you are laying in a floor crying not knowing what to do and then you cry out loud, LORD I GIVE IT TO YOU, IT IS IN YOUR HANDS, DO WITH ME WHAT YOU WILL. I have been there, many, many times, and sometimes it doesn't work how you plan, because it isn't what we want...it is Gods will. I can promise you what ever God brings you to, he will bring you through.

I try so hard to explain the way I feel knowing that God is in my life, and it is something that is inexplicable, something you have to feel for yourself.

With all of that being said, I hope none of you have to experience a time so hard as I did, but I urge you, if you don't know the Lord, there is no better time than now to find him....


another one:

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.Philippians 4:13
It's so funny how you can go 30 years and a bible verse always mean the same thing, then one day out of the blue that verse has a whole new meaning to you.
I often referred myself to that verse (Philippians 4:13) when I was having a struggle through the day, month, year or even in life, I found mental strength in it. On January 8th, 2009 I found myself repeating that verse over and over when the Doctor told my that my son would be born with Spina Bifida and hydrocephalus that he may never be able to walk or have a "normal" life. Then again on May 11th 2009 as I struggled to walk down 2 halls after a c-section to see my helpless baby boy in the NICU, then again when I got to go home and he didn't and for the almost month that he stayed there. All those times I was looking to that verse for mental strength to get me through these things. Yesterday something amazing happened. Gavin WALKED, he just let go and WALKED. He had started doing it around lunch time and everytime it was unexpected and I was very unprepared to catch it on video then finally just after supper he was off again WALKING, BAREFOOT! Jason caught it on video and of course the video went viral through my family and friends. One person made me stop and think, a friend of my Mother said This gives special meaning to the words, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." a light bulb went off, chills ran up my spine and all of a sudden it had all new meaning to me. Physical strength.

I just want to stand on a Mountain top and scream at the top of my lungs, PRAISE JESUS!

I am so very proud of all my Children, they are each very amazing and I have been so very blessed to be able to be their Mother.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.Philippians 4:13