It is God's will.. Really it is, sometimes you feel it and know it, it can be fleeting that is ok, but this is God playing director and that is ok, too. Unless you know everything you can't assume the Dude who knows everything doesn't know best.. And most of us believe in the spirit world, and reincarnation, this is just a game, maybe in a couple thousand years some of you will be playing Rockefeller due to the Rockefellers of today and what they did to you now. So much hate, some will want to give payback, and then the evil spirits of today will take on role of the good people of the future - not by deceit but by nature. It's a game, cyclic, you die you come back. As to whether you're still "you", well if you can recall past lifetimes then you are still your soul but just a new role, a new essence.

You really have to be able to say fuck it, and then give it up to God. Tis meant to be, and if God needs you to die you can say fuck you God all the time long but you don't know until you know the purpose of things.