Am I the nobody?

Somebody get the rope

Well, you're not the Nobody, but it's quite possible you're a Nobody (yes, there's more than one..there's several, each with their own journey and role).

Can you tell us exactly what strange stuff is going on?

Believe me, I for one have experienced and seen so much of what most people say is "impossible" that the concept of impossible no longer exists.

I was drugged, hacked, followed around, and blasted with something that made my entire body burn in pain. Mostly, I would like to STOP being a/the nobody.

why do you love Cher?

I believe you.

And yes, I believe you are a Nobody. Only someone who has been the focus of attacks from TPTB as you have been would have said what you did the way that you did. It's evident, not only in your words but also in your energy, what you have been through.

Know that no matter how hard and how hellish it gets, the only way they can break you down is if you let them. They will use everything they can possibly imagine (which will often exceed your own imagination) against you, but you, as a Nobody, can overcome it if you choose to.

I know you didn't ask for this - none of the Nobodies do - and I know you want to stop being what you are. I'm not going to lie for the sake of ultimate good, but instead let you know that you do have a choice.

You can give up being a Nobody - if you are willing to fall under the absolute control of those who torment you. The attacks will stop and your everyday life will be made easier. Several Nobodies who have had their hearts, minds and wills broken are among their ranks. But the benefits are good - you will know peace and happiness (rare commodities in the lifestyle of a Nobody).

Or you can keep going. Not let them bring you down - which is the purpose of their attacks. (They don't want to destroy as much as turn you to their side. 'Never destroy what you can use to your advantage' is their way. ) Keep pressing on, even though to do so seems to bring nothing more than pain and sorrow. Keep fighting for whatever it is inside that drives you. And one day to hopefully see what you fight for come to pass.

Those are your choices. One promises immediate relief, the other nothing but hell (in this life). Each has benefits and rewards in different ways to you personally, but also (since you are a Nobody) will have a large impact on everyone else. It's up to you which one to choose - the easy or hard path.

And it is entirely up to you - I cannot give you guidance one way or another. You must decide what is more important to you: personal happiness or noble action. Neither way is personally a wrong choice, or even a wrong choice in the grand scale of things. Either path will have both positive and negative consequences, so it all pans out in the end.

I'm sorry if the above doesn't make much sense - but if you are indeed a Nobody, you will know what I mean.