loose it.. how connected are you to this pack?... can you carry less into the conflict?.. leave the gear in the shed?.. and go.. out daily?.. and be effective?.. why am i talking like this to you?.. to reach you?.. or should i have said.. go.. to flowing water.. or a display of natuer.. one that minimises you.. and get alone.. and talk it out.. f it.. yell it.. [link to www.youtube.com] Much Love.. its a method.. he was going to kill himself itthink..