something els

What are we doing?
it all feels so false. nothing to do. I dont like attention for me very much. But i like to spread thoughts.
I've ignored alot of chances in life and turned to self pity. But it all feels so meaningless people are confused and afraid searching for something more yet judging all they can.
Have we not evolved enought to see that every preson is unique as they are. Yet everybody puts a lable on people. Some are starving some are fat, some are alone while others are...
Im yet to find somebody that wants to be with me nothing more or less. But love might be forever gone?
Every morning as i wake up ive died once more. What will future generations say about us. Will they remember the greed? the suffering? the loneliness? or is it just another chapter in time that one day will be forever forgotten?
The days are getting darker and darker. I've told the devil that he can have my soul if he takes me away from here but nothing has happend.
I've asked God to give my years to somebody more in need but nothing has happend.
i've pushed away most of my friends and family. Yet im still able to feel hope wich keeps me here still.
You are just 1/(7*10^9) what do you want to change? what do you want to find? or who do you want to love?

Time for me to sleep.