Light workers, Angels and Saints Doreen Virtue

I only recently became very taken in by angels. I couple of years back I lost a friend and spent some time using cards but never got much from them. In December I lost a very close friend to suicide and since then it's been one sign after another that they truly exist. I have spent the past few months experiencing different signs and have visited a lady who has done two readings for me with tarots cards and she's actually took me through so much turmoil or my angels have through her. I bought myself a new pack of angel cards not Doreen Virtue although I owned a pack of hers years ago but gave them to a friend. I was told you shouldn't buy your own and my friend ever so kindly surprised me at the weekend with a pack of Doreen's card's angels and saints. The cards are beautiful I was so touched by the gift but didn't get much time to look at them as we were heading out that night but I had them with me the whole time. When we were going for our taxi I found a white feather on my seat I was really touched by it and had such a lovely night. I was enjoying my night out when I really suddenly got split from all my friends I got such a strong intuition to go upstairs and I didn't know why but I went with it and again a voice telling me to go left so I did right there was some friends of friends which was random as the club is away from home and I don't know many in it they happened to be chatting to a guy I recognized to have worked for my family; he like myself had been through some trauma in his life and in fact helped me out one time I was in a bad place 4 years ago. I was really touched by talking to him and next he asked if he could give me something he put his hand in his coat and produced a St.Bernadette medal I was really blessed by it and after speaking for some time went back down stairs and caught up with my mates. It wasn't until I got home that night and was heading to bed that I found a really negative energy around me that I hadn't experienced in years but I had a protection prayer I once used that i said that helped and I moved bed to my friends room and kept quiet about it for fear of being told I was nuts. So the next morning we were all sat around reflecting on the night before when I expressed how chuffed with my feather and medal I was and got a strong feeling there was some association with my new cards so when I took out my new cards to have a proper look at them I realized that all the cards in the pack were the one size except for one card which was 5 times thicker than the rest and that was the St.Bernadette card I was wowed by this having been giving the St.Bernadette medal the night before. A young lad was with us and I was like to him you probably think we are nuts and he expressed that he didn't and told us of a gift he had himself and how it was very intense on him at a young age and frightened him a bit and told me that all that is happening me is amazing and to go with it but that there is negative energy too but that not to be frightened that it cannot harm me unless you invite it in which I never would. He also explained how being around someone negative can rub off on you which I related to myself as I had a very abusive relationship in my early teen with a man much older than me who worshiped negative energies. So when I got home that evening I was experiencing a lot of thought and was reflecting on what I had been told and got some really strong voices in my head and when I asked for a sign that all of this was happening and I wasn't just losing my mind a little very strong white light rays appeared from the clouds down over the bay in the view from my house. That night I was quiet fearful going to sleep and didn't get sleeping to 5am I was afraid of the negative energy coming again and a card on my wall was swaying and I felt as though it was trying to signal something to me so I got up and examined to see was there wind or heat making it move and neither were present so I got the thoughts same as in the club like my own thoughts only stronger to look at my bag full or cards but at the same time I took a little memory box to my bed to examine so nothing was standing out in the cards and I got the strong thought again saying no Niamh not the cards the memory box so I opened the memory box only to discover a ring and a little pair of rosary beads that I had put away from 4 years previous that I had with me in Lourdes when me and my mum and daughter visited and these items were all with me when I visited St.Bernadette's relic at the time my faith wasn't strong but I went anyway and I loved the experience. I eventually got to sleep and the next morning I experienced two other urges and with both came across more including holy water with St.Bernadettes image and a card with her image inside. I have been having strong thoughts and receiving other signs but haven't had a feeling of clarity on all of it it's quiet over whelming and I'm just looking to see what it all means. This message could be so random to your but I would appreciate any insight or advice you could offer to me.