It's hard to explain. The best way I can do so is like this, for now.
I got this letter from one of my doctors the other day...
(had to remove link to letter because post wouldn't go through ~ will loophole this in a minute)The best explanation I can give currently is in a response PM that I sent to GFG a little while ago, which I took a screen shot of to share here.
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No one will ever fully know what I went through during those couple of years. But some here know more than even my family.
There's really nothing else that can explain this. I have so much documentation it's sickening. I could truly write a book on this one experience itself.
I get nervous speaking of it in the past tense. Because this was (and is) VERY real for me and left me in a very bad place for a very long time. I truly didn't think I was going to get through it.
And I have been through some shit. Far before this scenario. Shit that many of my good friends weren't fortunate enough to see the other side of. And whatever the heck happened with me over the past 2-3 years was actually comparable to the pain I experienced way back then.
I'm rambling. Some of you know me well enough to understand the gibberish above.
So much is beginning to make even more sense to me now. On a very deep, personal, spiritual level.
~*Ride the Wave*~