just found this poem I wrote about 30 years ago....
I feel the grip of the storm
Hanging on to me
My life goes up then down
Like a ship on the raging sea
It's been awhile for my feet
To feel a solid ground
Cold water rushes through my heart
I am sinking, I don't want to drown
It used to be so easy
to abandon this old wreck
Let her fall to the oceans floor
without looking back
Things have changed, I have changed
I feel I know this ship
She handles a storm better than any before
She was built upon respect
Still any vessel without the tools of navigation
Shall surely drift off course
Into cold waters, in need of salvation
Before things get much worse
wisdom brings knowledge
And courage brings strenth
These are the tools for repair
Awareness comes to those who look past the horizon
And believe their already there
Those deceived by what they see
Stay trapped in the storm named despair