Ugh CS, I am feeling your pain!! This has been the WORST week ever at my job! My computer crashed out of nowhere (ya, hmmm) on Saturday (when I'm not in), I had already pre-planned on taking Monday off (just in case, lol) and got back to the torture chamber, I mean office, yesterday to find a computer which could not be used, and which was also the company's "server." My computer acted as the company's server. So if/when my computer shits the bed, the company as a whole suffers. But naturally, I suffer most. Because the logic in that place is that I should be responsible for fixing the problem because I happen to work at the computer that is, and shouldn't be, acting as a server for the company's network folders/files. Over the years I have had to learn, on my own, how to work on computers...IT stuff. With zero background/school on these things it is extremely frustrating to have to learn it on your own. Takes longer than it should, which = wasted time. I have NO time to waste. The shit storm is still brewing in there because I have yet to get a new computer (how this is even a true statement blows my mind!) so we have been in a world of disaster there.

CS, I shit you not, it got so bad/intense there today that I texted my mother and asked her if I could temporarily move back home (after being on my own for years) if I truly needed to walk out today. The last time I felt the way I did today was when I was kept in the hospital overnight due to my heart rate. No joking, I'm having far more serious chest pains tonight than I was that night. But I'm not going to the damn hospital. I know that's stupid, but it is what it is. I'm not going. I won't even tell my mother because she would come pick my ass up and make me go. I just can't. That would only further stress me out.

Okay, rant over....I'm gonna go find me another rabbit hole to get lost in.