I've had a higher than normal stressful week at work. Sorry that today was the day you chose to read through some, hehe. My main stress is my work environment. GLP is like my therapy...if that sounds crazy to anyone, I challenge anyone to sit at my desk for 1 week...40 hours. At my work...ugh! Scratch that, I would never wish that upon anyone.

Tomorrow is my appointment with the oncologist, but on Friday, maybe I will attempt to record just what takes place there. I really need at least 1 more person to understand what I'm dealing with. Currently the only person who truly knows is a co-worker. ONE co-worker who can SEE exactly what is going on in that building. No one else sees shit. It's just me and her. I worry about her health because of it. The poor thing is pregnant while dealing with this insanity.

For me to even CONSIDER moving back in with my parents speaks volumes about my work environment. I do NOT want to move back in with my parents!

:cruise big:

I have a child to raise and a mortgage to pay (and all those other fun bills/expenses that come along with everything). I couldn't afford any of that if I walked out today. But it's a real shitty feeling to have to contemplate that pretty much every single day. For years. I don't have much fight left inside of me for that place. I have been used and abused there for too long. It has officially destroyed my health. And I am convinced that I will breathe my last breath in that awful place.

So welcome to my 9-5, lol.

I come here and have true, loving, caring, beautiful, intelligent, etc... people to communicate with. It is a breath of fresh air. For me. : )