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Anonymous Coward User ID: 55296602 United States 07/12/2014 04:16 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Earthquake Thread ~ Always Updated*5.5 Kermadec Islands*5.1 Mariana Islands*5.0 Philippines*5.0 Tonga ~ Pg 20444 Ok, I shall do this now... this is part of my human experience, and it’s all just coming full circle... if anyone can relate to me in anyway maybe it could help someone... Quoting: Earth420 I'm going back to So Cal to live with my ex-boyfriend from 16 years ago. How does something like that happen? I was 19 years old, and he was my student (I was a teacher’s assistant, I wanted to be a teacher.) He was 17. We were instantly driven towards each other, no matter how hard we tried not to. He was punk rock, and I went to his practices and him singing was just like angels singing to me, I swear it! ha ha I eventually lost my job, but I didn’t care I was SO in love. I could not stay away from him! Well, his parents did not approve of our relationship, and proceeded to send him to Czech Republic to a behavior modification program that was part of WWASP... I only knew they had sent him to the Czech Republic, they said he was going to stay with family and go to school... I was devastated and shocked. I was at the HEIGHT of being in love with someone, and he was now ripped away from me... This is where my psychotic break occurred... where my bipolar now turned into schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I was broken. Dealing with this, and the schizophrenic symptoms’ I was having, waiting on anything from him, a letter something... I had to run... had to numb myself... had to forget the euphoric feeling of love and joy that I felt with him... It was so painful that every day without him just killed something more inside of me. I at this point wasn't treated in my mental illness, nor would I really get a handle on it till I turned to marijuana completely (this past year) and have had much success with it. I had no idea he was like in a prison. But atleast in prison you can write and call! He could do nothing to contact me, but I had no idea… I got pregnant, but was saved by that at that point as my spiral into drugs, sex and alcohol infused me beyond even what I can even now remember about it. I can’t remember things now. Fast forward 16 years. I’m divorced and had been sick for 2 years, and was living in a state of precancer with no hope of Idaho helping me with the surgery I needed… this changed me immensely. Buddhism came through for me. And every procedure, test or anything… I told myself if I could get through this, and keep going, and I beat this I would go see him one more time. I had the opportunity to move with family to Colorado and right before my surgery I met back up with him on FB. Man, when I think about it I just get so happy that I eventually took the trip back home to see him, and my family too! So amazing! Nothing had changed, that love was still there… it is timeless! Leaving was hard… but then now, I’m moving there at the end of this month, I’ll be with him and my family. And be back home, where I belong! Oh, I’m not very detailed if you can’t tell ha ha but he is the opposite. His mind and memories and attention to details are such a gift! He will be writing a book… What makes me sad is the fact that I have lost complete memories of him… that something was so painful that even good memories became a source of such great a pain… I had to block to the point of forgetting. He thinks they might come back to me. I just don’t know. But I am looking forward to every memory I can with him now, and I will never take a moment in time with him for granted. He doesn’t fill a void; he completes me! Love is all that matters! Beautiful and God Bless you all. Great! Life is for living. |
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Lekker User ID: 36374720 South Africa 07/12/2014 05:14 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Earthquake Thread ~ Always Updated*5.5 Kermadec Islands*5.1 Mariana Islands*5.0 Philippines*5.0 Tonga ~ Pg 20444 Ok, I shall do this now... this is part of my human experience, and it’s all just coming full circle... if anyone can relate to me in anyway maybe it could help someone... Quoting: Earth420 I'm going back to So Cal to live with my ex-boyfriend from 16 years ago. How does something like that happen? I was 19 years old, and he was my student (I was a teacher’s assistant, I wanted to be a teacher.) He was 17. We were instantly driven towards each other, no matter how hard we tried not to. He was punk rock, and I went to his practices and him singing was just like angels singing to me, I swear it! ha ha I eventually lost my job, but I didn’t care I was SO in love. I could not stay away from him! Well, his parents did not approve of our relationship, and proceeded to send him to Czech Republic to a behavior modification program that was part of WWASP... I only knew they had sent him to the Czech Republic, they said he was going to stay with family and go to school... I was devastated and shocked. I was at the HEIGHT of being in love with someone, and he was now ripped away from me... This is where my psychotic break occurred... where my bipolar now turned into schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I was broken. Dealing with this, and the schizophrenic symptoms’ I was having, waiting on anything from him, a letter something... I had to run... had to numb myself... had to forget the euphoric feeling of love and joy that I felt with him... It was so painful that every day without him just killed something more inside of me. I at this point wasn't treated in my mental illness, nor would I really get a handle on it till I turned to marijuana completely (this past year) and have had much success with it. I had no idea he was like in a prison. But atleast in prison you can write and call! He could do nothing to contact me, but I had no idea… I got pregnant, but was saved by that at that point as my spiral into drugs, sex and alcohol infused me beyond even what I can even now remember about it. I can’t remember things now. Fast forward 16 years. I’m divorced and had been sick for 2 years, and was living in a state of precancer with no hope of Idaho helping me with the surgery I needed… this changed me immensely. Buddhism came through for me. And every procedure, test or anything… I told myself if I could get through this, and keep going, and I beat this I would go see him one more time. I had the opportunity to move with family to Colorado and right before my surgery I met back up with him on FB. Man, when I think about it I just get so happy that I eventually took the trip back home to see him, and my family too! So amazing! Nothing had changed, that love was still there… it is timeless! Leaving was hard… but then now, I’m moving there at the end of this month, I’ll be with him and my family. And be back home, where I belong! Oh, I’m not very detailed if you can’t tell ha ha but he is the opposite. His mind and memories and attention to details are such a gift! He will be writing a book… What makes me sad is the fact that I have lost complete memories of him… that something was so painful that even good memories became a source of such great a pain… I had to block to the point of forgetting. He thinks they might come back to me. I just don’t know. But I am looking forward to every memory I can with him now, and I will never take a moment in time with him for granted. He doesn’t fill a void; he completes me! Love is all that matters! Shoooo! To love.... 33 I LOVE CATS AND SOME PEOPLE. |
Simple27 (OP) User ID: 36509574 United States 07/12/2014 05:41 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Earthquake Thread ~ Always Updated*5.5 Kermadec Islands*5.1 Mariana Islands*5.0 Philippines*5.0 Tonga ~ Pg 20444 Although I love having you here late night, because you never get to play (minus that one recent time) with "after 1:00am Simple27," I know it is far from normal for you to be posting right now. P.S. I am truly SOOOOO happy for you! You deserve all of it. And I know he must be amazing if you love him, so I'm happy for him too. He got a good girl. A lady. A true friend. A positively beautiful soul. He better never hurt you! ;-) I've come on here early a few times, with no so good results :( Can't tell if its EQs I'm a feeling, or the moon... Thanks SO much for your kind words, Sister! Love is ALL that matters! And I love you too, and look forward to keepin on with you through these times! I love you to pieces Earth! I got some great moon shots! Heading home from the beach now. I'll post them soon! ~*Ride the Wave*~ |
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Simple27 (OP) User ID: 57832527 United States 07/12/2014 06:20 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Earthquake Thread ~ Always Updated*5.5 Kermadec Islands*5.1 Mariana Islands*5.0 Philippines*5.0 Tonga ~ Pg 20444 Ok, I shall do this now... this is part of my human experience, and it’s all just coming full circle... if anyone can relate to me in anyway maybe it could help someone... Quoting: Earth420 I'm going back to So Cal to live with my ex-boyfriend from 16 years ago. How does something like that happen? I was 19 years old, and he was my student (I was a teacher’s assistant, I wanted to be a teacher.) He was 17. We were instantly driven towards each other, no matter how hard we tried not to. He was punk rock, and I went to his practices and him singing was just like angels singing to me, I swear it! ha ha I eventually lost my job, but I didn’t care I was SO in love. I could not stay away from him! Well, his parents did not approve of our relationship, and proceeded to send him to Czech Republic to a behavior modification program that was part of WWASP... I only knew they had sent him to the Czech Republic, they said he was going to stay with family and go to school... I was devastated and shocked. I was at the HEIGHT of being in love with someone, and he was now ripped away from me... This is where my psychotic break occurred... where my bipolar now turned into schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I was broken. Dealing with this, and the schizophrenic symptoms’ I was having, waiting on anything from him, a letter something... I had to run... had to numb myself... had to forget the euphoric feeling of love and joy that I felt with him... It was so painful that every day without him just killed something more inside of me. I at this point wasn't treated in my mental illness, nor would I really get a handle on it till I turned to marijuana completely (this past year) and have had much success with it. I had no idea he was like in a prison. But atleast in prison you can write and call! He could do nothing to contact me, but I had no idea… I got pregnant, but was saved by that at that point as my spiral into drugs, sex and alcohol infused me beyond even what I can even now remember about it. I can’t remember things now. Fast forward 16 years. I’m divorced and had been sick for 2 years, and was living in a state of precancer with no hope of Idaho helping me with the surgery I needed… this changed me immensely. Buddhism came through for me. And every procedure, test or anything… I told myself if I could get through this, and keep going, and I beat this I would go see him one more time. I had the opportunity to move with family to Colorado and right before my surgery I met back up with him on FB. Man, when I think about it I just get so happy that I eventually took the trip back home to see him, and my family too! So amazing! Nothing had changed, that love was still there… it is timeless! Leaving was hard… but then now, I’m moving there at the end of this month, I’ll be with him and my family. And be back home, where I belong! Oh, I’m not very detailed if you can’t tell ha ha but he is the opposite. His mind and memories and attention to details are such a gift! He will be writing a book… What makes me sad is the fact that I have lost complete memories of him… that something was so painful that even good memories became a source of such great a pain… I had to block to the point of forgetting. He thinks they might come back to me. I just don’t know. But I am looking forward to every memory I can with him now, and I will never take a moment in time with him for granted. He doesn’t fill a void; he completes me! Love is all that matters! I hope you know that when I tell you I love you, I mean it. I just had to say that first.... Omg, I friggin LOVE YOU!! And I love your love story and I am so excited for you because I know how happy and excited you are! I didn't know the history behind it and I thank you for sharing such a personal, beautiful, sad, but ultimately happy again story! I know all too well about that bolded part. I have used blocking as a defense mechanism for many years now and have also lost a lot of wonderful memories along with the bad. The good news darling is that you get another opportunity to create even more memories together! :s27heart7: ~*Ride the Wave*~ |
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Sir Tim The-Not-Quite-So-Brave User ID: 54925840 United Kingdom 07/12/2014 09:13 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Re: Earthquake Thread ~ Always Updated*5.5 Kermadec Islands*5.1 Mariana Islands*5.0 Philippines*5.0 Tonga ~ Pg 20444 just woke up but going back to bed way too early! My ears are hissing loudly. Quoting: AKObserver Saw this Rare, spectacular noctilucent clouds were visible over southwestern England last night [link to twitter.com (secure)] |