I spotted this one ;)

I know, I know, I know...I am slowly getting better. Promise!

Working on reconciling these "feelings" so they don't impact my job and I move forward still being friends anyway. Who knows? She may end up being a very good friend (she already is at least). I'm never comfortable with most other guys in this position anyway. They're all too vulgar in how they talk about women and I've never been one to be like that and I hate when guys talk like that so it's always kind of awkward with me being the polite guy nodding and not participating and the other 'friend' starts being vulgar in that way. So I avoid talking to most guys as friends beyond an acquaintance basis unless they prove they can be as polite as me...blah I am rambling...

It's going well at least. Faster than me being pathetic and waiting six months to build up the courage to ask her out while the she is single at least. :P (I mean in general. She is not single.)

I gotta man up about this shit and stop being a feely feely about it all and get over this stuff quicker. Oh who am I kidding I will always be a hopeless romantic :P