And why the deadline of making your purchases by the 15th?!

Awful gut-dropping moment just now. Deeper than I've felt yet. Shit is really about to hit the fan.

Here we go.

We knew it was coming. It's just so weird because of the different 'doom' scenarios over the years where nothing happened. Although many of us would be prepared for whichever scenario it was at any given time (or not because we knew it was BS at whichever specific time), it's just real now. The realest it's ever been. In so many different areas of 'doom.'

I am far from perfect or anything close to it, but I hope my heart is known by those who really matter. Most importantly the big guy upstairs.

I don't lie, I don't cheat, I don't try to intentionally hurt others, I try to help other when/if I can, I am compassionate and I am forgiving.

I have ugly sides though, too.

Idk, sorry. Can't help but think of these things these days. I'm rambling.