Fucking Goddamned bull shit loser-ass Friday.

So the woman I like from my last work place and I are still good friends and text at least a few times a week. Anyway. Or so I thought.

So she just HAS to tell me that their relationship is now official with "paperwork". You know...not exactly marriage but like that. I should mention that we are long-time friends and I have stressed that. Even when she suspected I liked her I didn't let on and don't plan to either. She's a good friend and a good work-related contact and I don't want to disturb that relationship. As much as it would make my life in terms of making me happy it would probably backfire if I ever made any moves anyway while she is single. But, she's never single and has always had that relationship.

Besides, I don't want to be THAT guy.

Anyway. Why the fuck can't anyone choose me for once? Oh. Right. I have two disabilities. Fuck wanting anything to do with me anyway.

This week was already shitty as it is and this just made it even worse.

I really don't care about much at this point except sleep.

Go ahead ACs. Make fun of me for living with mommy and being another loser.

I don't even know why the fuck I bother with life anymore anyway.

I've gotta get this damned article done but I don't even want to do that. I need to sleep for a while.

Now my mom's sick...again.

Sigh.