Actually, my intellectual argument is based on my own personal loss. What you call forgiveness, I call guilt aversion, and it is psychological transference at best, and at its worst, it is full blown psychosis. Dostoevsky got me through my dark valley, and if you want to believe in a God whose own holy book justifies the death of children who make fun of a bald prophet, then go right ahead. Plenty of children die every day in the most horrible, awful ways, and telling me Jesus welcomes them home with open arms, is bullshit, and changes nothing. Until people stop waiting for God to make things right, nothing will ever be right. I want accountability in the here and now, afterlife be damned. How many children have to die before Jesus comes back anyway? 2000 years of atrocities, 2000 years of infants being ripped apart for the amusement of the rich and powerful, and you want to talk about the love and forgiveness of Christ. I want retribution not salvation. Accepting that everything will be made right when you die, is just another lie by those who keep you powerless in your Christian paralysis.