Sorry to hear of the pain you are experiencing my dear friend.
This world constantly gives us heart breaks and those who seek to find that tranquility and that deep longing in others will be heart broken.
Sometimes we get so broken that we just wanna give all up and leave it all like as if life no longer hold any purpose and no value for us.
It hurts like hell, and just eat us up from the inside.
I know because I've been there too even been at the edge of just taking my own life because nothing made any sense anymore.
Just too many games too many empty words, too much noise and people being so busy with just being busy.
But you can do it dear heart.
You can take that brokenness and go deeper, find the true you behind the tears and the pain, behind all the fake promises given to you.
Forget about those, befriend your innermost, there is guidance and there is a love that never lies never fails and never goes away.
Our hearts are broken because we cling to this world and what it hold, when we grow from our wounds we embrace all of us and we start to live a true life, connecting with who we really are and with that One Life that connects us all, beyond all the games and all the stories.
You have in you an amazing miracle of love, you can grow past that hurt and brokenness, love yourself and heal yourself through that.
Not to be the same but to become who you really are.
The Spirit have faith in you and so do I
You are loved and you matter.

Lots of love to you