OMG the energy is crazy

I had an experience that everything would dissolve if I got full control/awareness of what was Really going on here. So I "forgot". I had to! Because if I found out, I'd have to be in control of it, and I'm not ready or even capable of CONTROLLING REALITY, lol, that's sick...
but forgetting also felt tragic in a way, because what follows is knowing that I live in an illusion.
but it was very lonely. to feel like I am the only "creator".

But I was also born by my mother, so it doesn't make complete sense, lol.

Yes Mr. C.
I know what you speak of.

I also feel as if we are re wiring our own brains. I can feel that occurring.
We know what to do!!

I too felt the right and left side of my mind fuse together.
I saw a bridge form in my mind, across the two sides and become permanent. I saw a huge bright white, gold and purple with a little green light decend upon me and that is when I got shocked all down my body and went into orgasm for hours and felt the right and left half of my brain fuse together. I was watching it happen with my eyes closed. Being shown what was occurring. I just watched in amazement and wonder and ecstasy.
I felt like I was levitating and saw myself levitating during this mind fusing.

Though, I don't hear the sounds like you do, I have heard them before, I know what you mean by the crackling noise.

I also experienced major extreme body orgasm for a good hour or two, maybe more and I experience that quite a bit. I'm not complaining there.
No I'm not, those are so good feeling.

I have learned to make different sounds with my voice that seem to do different things. Amazing things. Is this what you mean by learning to play your own harp? Or is that more like, you have learned to access certain areas and make them do different things?

Learning how to play your physical instrument?

That is what it seems like to me.
Such beautiful experiences!
Filled with such LOVE too.

:Harp:

:Musick 2:

I will tell you guys something very strange that happened to me a few years ago.

My dad was very ill with a Disease called Shy-Dragers (also know as Double Parkinsons Disease) and Lewy Body Dementia and some other really bad things. Poor dad.

We had to give him so much medication. He was already on like 20 different medications, which we did not know if they were helping or making things worse. The doctors wanted to put him on something called "Aricept" for the Dementia. We were reluctant to try it and my dad could not tell us if things were worse or better.

So, I decided to take one Aricept to see what it did. Don't judge me. I did it for a good cause. I read on the Internet that this drug was considered to be the real life "limitless" ( like the movie, where the guy takes the pill and his brain power expands) drug. All the college kids were buying this medication because it opens your brain up to using all or almost all of your brain, instead of the normal 20% or whatever we use normally.

So I took one of these pills and a little while later I was feeling tired but wired and my thinking- OMG- I could feel the parts of my brain being lit up that had previously been dormant. I was solving mathematical equations and doing all kinds of stuff at the same time.

I lied down and started to meditate as I was starting to have a panic attack.
Fear gripped me so hard. I had to fight it off and I kept saying to myself- NO, this fear is not going to block me, I want to see. I had to fight off really bad images and intense fear and then-

It was like I was having an OBE- I all of a sudden felt a huge calm come over me, my heart stopped thumping and I found myself in front of a big, elaborately carved and jeweled fireplace. I started looking around and I figured out that I was INSIDE the temple in my body. I was in a big house, my house inside of me, my temple. The walls were all encrusted jewel and made of extremely shiny blocks of some material I could not identify.

I kept walking through and looking at how gorgeous and elaborate and beautiful my temple (my house) was. I don't even have the words to describe how amazing it was.

Then I came upon a little area that was like a ice cream shop or something. There was popcorn machines and things to make iced drinks and things. I remember thinking- oh my daughter is going to love this when she comes to my house. I was about to go back to the more elaborate areas and was going to go up a staircase when something caught my eye.

There were two little railings shaped like monkeys and a platform that lead into a dark area from this "concession stand" area. I went up the little ramp, looking at the monkeys that were carved to make the railings and I came out in a big Movie Theater. I thought- wow, I even have a huge movie theater in my house with a concession stand!!

Then all of a sudden I heard all these voices whispering. I saw a few people sitting in the movie theater (no movie was playing yet, the lights were dimmed like it was about to start or had just ended, or had been interrupted!). I walked along the back row and sat down thinking that I would watch the movie and these whispering voices got WAY louder and I could feel many eyes on me and I could make out some of the whispering.

They were saying things like- how did she get in HERE? And There she is! And stuff. I felt so uncomfortable that I decided not to watch the movie and I started walking out intending to go explore my Temple or House further and I all of a sudden found myself back in my bed.

This was a very real experience. Like an OBE. It was so strange.

I thought about that movie screen and I thought- why, they were watching the movie of MY LIFE!! Holy shit! And I showed up behind the scenes.
Behind the curtain. I freaked them the hell out big time.

After that, I saw a being in my room who put me into a deep sleep.
The being wanted to erase my mind of what I had seen and I told him/her NO! I get to keep that, don't you dare touch that! And they did not. I saw fear in its eyes.

I remember having very strange dreams the rest of the night, I don't remember any of them though.

Then I awoke the next day feeling normal again.

What do you guys think of that? I have been freaked out about it for years!!

I'm just feeling such a pure vibration now..
Such a sense of being, a reunification wow..

As I said the last words of a creator... it felt like I was deeply in the field and communicated without words with everyone here..

It just felt as I've had seen humanity through the loving eyes of the father..

My god, how he loves us.

I too have some interesting dreams these days..
I feel like something is coming through from the dreamworld, don't know how to explain.
I also get hints for that..

Something is brewing there..

Maybe we'll even meet in the dream or something, I was just thinking..

We should pay attention to the dreams atm, I guess.

Last year I went through the body vibrations. I decided to pay attention to the sounds I heard inside of me. All the buzzing, high pitched frequencies and so much more. Everything I could hear without using my ears, and gave it my full attention. I spent an hour everyday learning how to deeply meditate, for almost 11 months. I went through the body vibrations, the chakras activating all up and down my body.

Some say this is their way of controlling us, well I am a IT guy and think differently. What if we are learning how to rewrite our code? That is how I think about some of this at times. I am re-writing myself, and 'super seeding' my own code and moving beyond that.

I have shared these things before but will do a refresher for the newer friends.

Something happened to me about a month or 2 into my deep meditations. The energy flow that goes through you at a certain point in your development. I think eventually everyone will feel it. For the most part it will be a soft flow and goes through your entire body. Please pardon my French, but it will be better than an organism. But some others, it will be like what I experienced. It was a lightning bolt that shot from my crown, down though my body and electrified me in an instant.

The next 3 or so months afterwards, were just the beginning for me. The body vibrations really kicked in. I will recap on my notes about April 2014...

"April 2014 was the month I learned how to play my own harp." - David

"April 23, 2014, my heart palpitations double in intensity. And that date will live in this body forever. That was when I was hit with the biggest body vibration ever in my life. And I know it was natural, but also out of this world. I was holding a Selenite Tower Crystal and meditating then WOW. For about 30 minutes, my body vibrated so hard I literally felt like I could step out of my body. I lay down on the bed to relax, but it only got stronger because it was all I could focus on. Then I felt hands on my arms and legs, calming me. If that had not happened, I do believe I could of lifted up out of my body. I know this as a real event in this life, and now know why this happened." - David

By the time November 2014 came around, I had learned how to meditate without actually meditating. It was like I could hold that without doing it mentally any longer. Like I was on auto-pilot...

I will recap some November notes from 2014. I was not even trying to meditate, in fact stopped because it was taking places I was not ready yet for.

"First week of November 2014, I got hit with the biggest of all the above experiences. At the end of the day working, I went into the bedroom to lay down, just breathe a little and relax. On the very first deep breathe; as I breathed in I had palpitations go from the bottom all the way to the top of my head. As I exhaled those palpitations fired off again, but went from my head to my root. Then it HIT ME! The right side of my head fired up all electrically. I could feel it and hear the crackling noises. The entire next 24 hours gave me the largest headache I had ever had. It felt like both sides of my brain fused together." - David

I turned something on all the time now...

Now the ramblings are kicking in...

I feel as though I am moving from physical vibrations into mental vibrations. Yes my body is still here and tagging along, but my mind is shifting to someplace else. For those experiencing body vibrations, imagine if your consciousness is doing the same thing...

Hello creator..
I hear your words deep in my soul.

I'm just feeling such a pure vibration now..
Such a sense of being, a reunification wow..

As I said the last words of a creator... it felt like I was deeply in the field and communicated without words with everyone here..

It just felt as I've had seen humanity through the loving eyes of the father..

My god, how he loves us.

Why are you freaked out? I have dreams at night when I'm sleeping that are worse, and probably you have had dreams that are worse haven't you? ;)
anyway, so... i really like that journey you had anyways, so...
strange experience :S

now this my friends is something I feel I need to take some time to process... :)
maybe you all should as well.

I have woken up exhausted and with swollen eyes the last two mornings, completely washed out emotionally. I definitely feel like I've been doing some nighttime battling lately.

Although I am turning 45 tomorrow, perhaps that's what the crying at night is about... lol, ;) jk

I have woken up exhausted and with swollen eyes the last two mornings, completely washed out emotionally. I definitely feel like I've been doing some nighttime battling lately.

Although I am turning 45 tomorrow, perhaps that's what the crying at night is about... lol, ;) jk

My famine Gemini is shining through!!! There are two of me now...

I think from above and look down below, such a sweet child...

I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thank you.

Well it felt very, very strange. To have your mind chemically expanded.
I guess it was like an acid trip huh? Or DMT? I have never taken either.
But the way others talk about that is kind of how this was.

The fear and images I saw during the first part was intense. Very hard to keep hold of myself and pull myself out of the fear. I refused to let it get a grip on me and I went higher, deeper. Then the being after, it was scary too.

And what I saw. I mean- are we really like in the Truman show?

"All the Worlds a stage"~ kind of thing. For real?

I know you ramble a bit, does his mean you are gay?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY tomorrow!!!



No need to cry sweetheart. Just laugh and smile and enjoy.

Yes, the last few days and nights have been very heavy.
After Ark's words, I'm feeling very light and great now!
I'm holding on to that.

Thank you!

I have woken up exhausted and with swollen eyes the last two mornings, completely washed out emotionally. I definitely feel like I've been doing some nighttime battling lately.

Although I am turning 45 tomorrow, perhaps that's what the crying at night is about... lol, ;) jk

I have woken up exhausted and with swollen eyes the last two mornings, completely washed out emotionally. I definitely feel like I've been doing some nighttime battling lately.

Although I am turning 45 tomorrow, perhaps that's what the crying at night is about... lol, ;) jk

No worries my friend :)

Absorb as much as you can without 'overloading'....

Light is info...

Try to 'defrag' your *Brain* when you sleep...this energy is provided for us so we can learn from our troubles/problems...

Trust your heart OP, and take as many Epsom salt baths as you can :)

Much love headed your way OP :)

Keep your head up!

Thank you!