Oh, I feel so sad for you. Sixty is not that old and you lost her so young. I know how feeling your mom being gone just grips your heart.

Leukemia diagnosis at that age is always bad news. It's bad enough for the kids. My nephew had it but he made it well past puberty. We are not all that fortunate. I know a very dear friend of my mother died from it many years ago.

I have to say, I lost my mother seven years ago. We were super close. Our family was not always perfect but I would have gladly died instead of her. It left me feeling like I should have died with her. There were some difficult circumstances with another family member that really screwed me up big.

Anyway, three years is about the bare minimum for the worst of the grief. Seems like it slowly gets better. I do talk to her from time to time in case she's listening wherever she is. Well I know she's in heaven because I had a dream about her with irrefutable proof it was a glimpse of heaven since I learned about some family news that hadn't reached me yet.

It still hits me now and then. My husband and I aren't spring chickens. We still have his mother but I'm afraid it won't be long for her either.

I know how hard it is to look for help and comfort and not find it anywhere. I almost had to yell at God about that at one point...

Yes, birthdays, anniversaries, holidays can be the worst. Not much we can do but go on you know? We really don't have much choice in the matter. Just know that no one can take away the love you shared. Some might say our fates are intertwined, we'll forever be together in spirit.