Been through this process too. Just got up finally.

It is true that walking barefoot on the grass is benefitial in this situations. Weed helps carry the load, but makes the emotions worse and more pressuring.

Now that you are better, be aware you have a choice, back into the material world, or back into the spiritual. Ideally, paradoxically, we are the ones to merge them both in our lives. Make piece among them.

Follow astrological influences, the energies are so high we cannot resist being drawn in when they decide. This is spreading like a virus. It appears the Earth will awaken. ;)

Best of luck to you brother, you will come out of this stronger, wiser, and more loving, in the end. :)