Now you are failing, because you are doing the false mystic thing of purposefully being cryptic to gain more and more attention and attraction and mystique. On your journey to where you are at now, how many humans (and non) have gave you their honest thoughts and information and knowledge, that you have read? And now that you are in their position, you are being cryptic and not expressing the great truth you have discovered? One can only conclude that you have chosen the dark dark side.