The VOID

err... that's William White, not Walter, my bad

turtle on the brain lately, and a lil' tree used to have a turtle she named Walter

yeah, that's what I'll blame that lapse on :)

that's precisely what the tip of the iceberg is like

I first came across a description from another of it in Walter White's DXM FAQ, in which he expanded upon Ann Shulgin's description of what she coined as "The Dissociative Spiral".


"The Dissociative Spiral is a term which I borrowed (and modified) from Shulgin's PiHKAL. It describes a particular set of characteristic sensations or internal states that seem to occur as a result of some sort of abnormal temporal lobe functioning. In PiHKAL, Ann Shulgin recounts how she would experience the "Spiral" when she was younger, almost always right before going to sleep. Many people have reported the very same set of effects on DXM (and ketamine), and I suspect that people who experience it naturally may have something interesting going on in the temporal lobes that mimics the effects of dissociatives. Perhaps this is due to release of endopsychosin, or perhaps it's just the way these people's brains are wired. One person suggested it may be complex partial seizures, but I don't think there's any evidence for that.

The Dissociative Spiral seems to have four phases, each phase lasting a fixed amount of time. Not everyone experiences all phases. I have given each phase a name which I think is descriptive based primarily on the experiences of DXM users; I also suggest you consult PiHKAL for Ann Shulgin's version.

1. Supernova. Ann Shulgin refers to this as "macrocosm-microcosm". There is a sensation that one's "core" is rapidly shrinking, growing ever smaller and smaller, down to the size of a subatomic particle. Accompanying this shrinking sensation is a feeling of one's "outer shell" expanding equally rapidly, until it fills the entire universe. This is generally considered as a pleasant sensation, with a slight characteristic of free-fall.

2. Lilliputian Hallucinations. After shrinking down to a proton, the Lilliputian Hallucinations begin. Everything that one imagines or recalls seems grossly distorted in size. Human figures alternate between tall and thin and stretched out like taffy, and shrunken and rounded. Many people see long, thin ribbons of multicolored energy.
There is a disturbing sense of Infinity with these hallucinations. Most find this phase extremely grating on the soul, mentally painful, perhaps because one is perceiving objects to have totally opposite characteristics at once. Some people are familar with Lilliputian hallucinations from fevers.

3. Veils of Light and Darkness. The third phase consists of alternating visual fields of total, thick black and ghostly white or greyish-white. Each visual field gives way to the opposite as if veils were being torn and dissolved. The "black veil" is often described as being much darker than ordinary darkness, since even the phosphenes (the patterns one sees with eyes closed in the dark) are absent. Most people also find this phase extremely unpleasant.

4. Contact. The fourth phase, and the rarest, is also the most spectacular. After passing through the last Veil, there is a sudden sense of being in the presence of a profoundly powerful, loving, intelligent entity (or occasionally, multiple entities). These typically greet the individual with empathic communication, sending messages of familiarity, joy, love, concern, and occasionally a vague sense of humorous curiosity at finding a human being in this place. This phase is the most profound, and the most pleasant. To my knowledge nobody has ever done an EEG during the Dissociative Spiral, but I have a hunch that the temporal lobes would probably be doing something interesting. Perhaps this is a common occurance, but one that most people are incapable of perceiving. In any case, it is frequently observed with DXM, typically phases 1 and 2, occasionally phase 3, and rarely phase 4."

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With that said, I did experience the above, while in meditation. I spent years in practice, which later culminated into extreme fasting and meditating for up to 8 hours a day. For months


Now it just..comes to me..and has constantly for 7+ years.

I don't have to try. I DO have to try, to block it.

Not easy.

in kabbalah
human conscious can only attain the 4 lowest emanations
to some they seem frightening. lol

Netzach - "Eternity"
Hod - "Splendour"
Yesod - "Foundation"
(Vessel to bring action)
Malkuth - "Kingship"

It's amazing. The..things I've touched. And it took a lot of discipline to get there.


I've tried to share it with you all, over the years best I could explain.

I've been dissolved in Oblivion and it was the Best. Thing. Ever.

After ALL the other...Best Things Ever..


So much beautiful. It both crushes and thrills me, that I can't always touch it, while..that I have.


I think that is why people are compelled to touch me. For the same reason.

If you get what I'm saying.


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forget it, gee whiz straight to your head! the power of seer compels you! lol

I haven't read all 15 pages, but the comments seemed genuine.

How do you propose that there's a void in a program?

What aspect of this program will hold this void you speak of?

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Self fulfilling or Fate? Does humanity always play out the same script?

Why do so many believe in prophecy?


Isaiah 30:14
It will break in pieces like a potter's jar, shattered so that no fragment can be found.

That sounds like being deleted ^^


Revelation 2:26-28
26And to the one who is victorious and continues in My work until the end, I will give authority over the nations. 27He will rule them with an iron scepter and shatter them like pottery— just as I have received authority from My Father. 28And I will give him the morning star


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forget it, gee whiz straight to your head! the power of seer compels you! lol

thank you for taking the time to explain your position. i often have to read you more then once to get your take.

i do go with my first feeling though. my second take often is an allowance for slack. lol

apologies accidently posted this elsewhere!
the loops i have to jump through! lol

I haven't read all 15 pages, but the comments seemed genuine.

How do you propose that there's a void in a program?

What aspect of this program will hold this void you speak of?

Is the delete button anything like the recycle bin on my desktop?


If I press the delete button and don't delete it from the recycle bin it may produce a different result.


The following ToyStory meme seems accurate to me.

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Who put the delete button in place without user instructions?

It's like the, Memory Hole.

Where people forget, they even remember. Any trace is deleted such that, once even those who can echo the memory..are gone.

Woody would get pissed after that many go arounds.

May I ask, are you pissed after many go arounds? Or the appearance of many go arounds?

Or does the merry-go-round still appeal to you?

Cause I'm done with all the beliefs that continue to loop it in the name of enlightenment, or learning, etc.

Do you have a belief in consciousness that overides the memory hole?

Some beliefs claim that consciousness is all, in which case it couldn't delete what it knows if it is all.
Or can it.



Like you I used to spend hours in meditation.
I still like the stillness of it although I stopped for a long time.
So much for liking something.

desires/aversions of all kinds will ignite the program every time.

May I share an idea that opened up in what may be labeled as the reverse memory hole?

A memory, or idea construct, recently landed in this memory repositor and I've sat with it for over a month now.
I use the word repositor and have to my knowledge never before heard that word, unless it went into the memory hole and came out just now without any awareness.

For the fun of it I looked up the definition of repositor:
def: any surgical instrument used for correcting the position of displaced organs or bones.

Maybe the definition is more appropriate than I realize.

Please let me know if you are willing to hear about this idea that came to me when I recently took up the stillness of meditation again, and if so I would welcome any type of critique.




^^^ nice tune by the way.
Thanks for sharing it.
You knew I'd like it didn't you.
I'm groovin to it now.

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the vegetation at chernobyl is quite splendid. it seems the increase radioactivity activated recessive genes from a bygone era when then sun's radiation output was considerably higher.

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It's funny cos it's true.
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Thanks. I feel better.



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News just breaking here, that over 6.4 million households water supplies in France have been found to be contaminated with tritium!

Tritium

External exposure to tritium gas or tritiated water is not very dangerous because tritium emits such a low energy beta particle that the radiation cannot penetrate the skin.

However, tritium does pose some health risks if it is ingested, inhaled, or enters the body through an open wound or injection. The biological half-life ranges from around 7 to 14 days, so bioaccumulation of tritium is not a significant concern. Because beta particles are a form of ionizing radiation, the expected health effect from internal exposure to tritium would be an elevated risk of developing cancer.
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Just one invisible particle of tritium lodged in your lung can form lung cancer.

^^

There's a little black spot on my lung today..





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There's a little black spot on my lung today..

are you ok?

That was in reference to the Tritium in the water in France thread, playing off all my recent radiation/Chernobyl and nuclear power themes..

Plus the nun meme:
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I do try to make it funny. Even though it often isn't.


I'm okay.

are you sure? noticed that you play a risky posture. working off opposite sides often leave one sol.

Mercury

Mercury is a major god in Roman religion and mythology, being one of the 12 Dii Consentes within the ancient Roman pantheon.

He is the god of financial gain, commerce, eloquence, messages, communication (including divination), travelers, boundaries, luck, trickery and thieves; he also serves as the guide of souls to the underworld.

He was considered the son of Maia, who was a daughter of the Titan Atlas, and Jupiter in Roman mythology. His name is possibly related to the Latin word merx ("merchandise"; cf. merchant, commerce, etc.), mercari (to trade), and merces (wages); for "boundary, border" (cf. Old English "mearc", Old Norse "mark") and Greek, as the "keeper of boundaries," referring to his role as bridge between the upper and lower worlds.

In his earliest forms, he appears to have been related to the Etruscan deity Turms; both gods share characteristics with the Greek god Hermes. He is often depicted holding the caduceus in his left hand.

Similar to his Greek equivalent Hermes, he was awarded the caduceus by Apollo who handed him a magic wand, which later turned into the caduceus.
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