The VOID

Doctors have told me I could be feeling electrical activity from my brain being overactive. If the nerves in my neck fixed, the brain goes back to normal, the energy goes away.

My emphatic prayers to Jesus..went ignored.

Part of the Hell process I think.. Maybe test of Faith. I grew up in the church and utilized its foundation, such that is has been particularly difficult and devastating to move through.

Only recently feeling liberated by some aspect.


Sad part about it, is those that could help on the way through, damn you through their own beliefs that uttering empathically the Lord's Prayer or Jesus' name, will save you..doesn't work.


What worked for me, was praying to angels and imploring the assistance of certain people..

Had to do, what I had to do.


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For me, the activity has intelligence behind it.

It is all intent base and a language.

One I am part of, whether I want to be, or not.

Which is why I compare it to hive.

If I do nothing involving anyone else and rely just on myself to fix this, as I've done before, the person who took that spot will still be on my like my own skin. What do I do about that?

And you know, now that Ive decided not to send negative energy anymore just in case, something interesting emerged to take its place. You *might* be getting some of it. Can I try it on you?

No.



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I said you might be getting some of it because it seems to go to whoever I look at on its own.

You know what? It's the black lights for eyes. The effect on you should be to give you black lights for eyes also. Which you should take, but it might seem unpleasant. Not like negative energy but like staring inti the abyss.

Not for nothing but there's a big difference looking at you with those and looking at the next person. You're like watching an interactive tv.

My eyes are green.

I felt energy pulsing out of me countless times..while staring in the mirror.

Nothing changes.

It is all invisible...



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I guess I can specify astral or energetic eyes. This thing kind of figures itself out, I'm just channeling it. But when I decided I'm not sending negative energy anymore those things lit up. In my imagination of course. Although my eyes are tingling now too.

You felt energy coming from your eyes? Did it have a color?

And how do I fix that woman's problem without replacing her?

It pulses/pressure from the space between my eyes..and everywhere else..depending.

Not my eyes exactly.

How do I "disentangle"?

Maybe you should work on yourself..with direct medical doctor advice.


Instead of thinking a woman is going to fix you.

I can't fix you.

You tried that already. It didn't work.

Well once you get a pair of these eyes you should be in a better position to evade their lock.

Just try not to 'own' it.

Not about that..and will only lead to more suffering.

All around.

I can fix myself, I just don't want what happened to you to happen to her. I want to "disentangle" her from myself.

Own it? I consider myself to be a willing trap for it. After my neck, it's locked in here with me.

Ok it seems like black lights for eyes make you what you would consider a vampire. But there's no effect on someone who already has black lights for eyes. The effect on someone without them is to eventually make them have black lights also.

There is an energy signature associated with me that is probably as strong as my own, which I take no responsibility for. There might even be more than one. I am not in a position to affect them other than to not go along with them.

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Well they were doing things before I came along, I should expect them to continue to do things after me. I can't help that unti my neck is fixed.

What type of doctor: neuropsychiatric? How do you mean feel electricity?

An injured neck spasms and those spasms are for all intents and purposes electric.

Can I ask your hair color so I know if this is you before I otherwise defend myself?

I don't think that's a type of doctor, but nuerologists and psychiatrists.

I just need some of this to be real and I can explain away the rest. If none of it is real, then I have been out of my mind for seven years due to an overactive brain. And this is my own form of therapy.

I know I said I was found out, but if this isn't real then there's nothing to find out and I'm being paranoid.

Now, while I would bet my life that it is real, I am still supposed to be surprised if it is.

At the same time, I can't explain away your replacement, I am supposed to think that that's real by some medical marvel. Why her and no one else is because even if we were both deluded, coincedence doesn't explain that. But if it's real then she must have something wrong with her.

In reality I am I guess confused as to what exactly I think. This doesn't surprise me given my circumstances.