My friends, I need some serious prayers. I have been putting off asking for them, but I am becoming overwhelmed with anxiety and fear and depression and all sorts of feelings/emotions.

It seems the more my doctors look into my current issues, the more new issues they find...without ever even finding/diagnosing the initial problems.

So I am kind of snowballing out of control lately. I'm a complete wreck in all honesty. : (

The month of July will be a busy one for me. I have A LOT of appointments coming up. I have at least 2 appointments per week in July.

This Friday I see my hematologist in Boston. I reviewed some of my test results from my past couple of appointments with him in March and April (I skipped my May appointment because my nephew was born and I wanted to spend the day with him instead of the hospital). Some of the results do not look good at all. One being my CRP level. Normal = less than 1, moderate risk = 1-2.9 and high risk is 3+. Mine was 8.2. :\

I have an MRI on the 11th for what was hoped to be a cyst on my upper back/shoulder, but an ultrasound done on June 7th didn't show definitive results for a cyst (nonspecific sonographic features - MRI recommended).

I also recently had a pelvis ultrasound which shows at least 3 uterine fibroids and a myometrial cyst with adenomyosis not excluded.

^^^This is all new stuff. Or newly found out about stuff. I also see a dermatologist on the 19th for a couple of skin cancer spots which I am hoping are basal cell again and nothing worse.

I am not in the best mental state lately. I am worried and scared. I have a very heavy heart. I feel very alone.