You know this pain is so extreme that I don't know how much longer I can take it before I end it in a drastic way.

I'm not being melodramatic just saying it how it is.

I am at times screaming out in agony here only to be told by the nurses to calm down and relax as I'm only making it worse!

They have to change my bedding at least twice a day due to me sweating like a "roast pig" from the pain.