I have spoken about this several times so won't bore everyone with details, but I have terminal cancer and the time is growing short. The doctors gave me until the first of the year but I really hoped it would be longer. Now the pain has gotten more severe and I'm taking narcotics, so I know it is downhill now.

What I need prayer for is my obsession with politics right now. I should be drawing closer to God but since a 12hr. surgery last December, I haven't been myself. I've been more irritable, shorter attention span and haven't been reading my Bible. When I do read it, I'm amazed and asking myself why I'm avoiding it. Avoidance is what I'm experiencing.

I'm not afraid to die because I've been fighting this disease for 10yrs. now this month and there have been times when I've felt so bad I wouldn't have minded dying. But this avoidance of God in the last year is really bad. I pray, but not like I used to. It's like I had brain damage from that long surgery and anesthesia.

I used to be fascinated with Bible prophecy and now the political part of prophecy has caught my attention more.

I don't remember hearing the doctors' voices or anything during the surgery. The operative report is clean, in fact it says I had no blood loss though I received 2 units of blood. I don't remember any near-death experience or anything but I was a different person when I came out of anesthesia.

So I would like prayer that I can shut the tv and computer off long enough to spend some quality time with the Lord, since I will be meeting Him soon. I've prayed every day for healing but it seems that is not His plan for me so I want to be ready when I meet Him. Sorry this is so long. Thank you all for your prayers.