Many thanks to those who have taken me in thoughts. I will try to do the same for you and pray again. One of the things that are most important for me that I want to achieve for the coming days are living healthier and starting to pray. I admit I don't practice like I used to but my love for the Lord is still great. I am not angry with God that I'm experiencing a difficult moment. I even thank Him that it might make me stronger or take away some karma. But I keep putting faith in Him that it might be a test for me to see how much I have trust in Him. And I don't lie if I say that several times a day I whisper some holy phrases and think about how blessed I feel by God. Everytime when I quit my home or start to drive with my bus for elder people, I'm thinking about the very existence of Him and that I feel lucky that it feels like He protects me. Of that I am aware and I also am concious that I don't do enough for what I get, especially if all goes well. So you can conclude that I am a very sincere person.