Throwing this out there just in case...

I really didn't even want to post this, but I have learned that it's best to not bottle things up and instead ask for prayers.

Ugh...

Some/most of you here in this thread know of some health issues I have had over the past few years. As a brief synopsis for those who don't know, a few years ago I had routine blood work done and my hemoglobin came back pretty high. High enough that my PCP had me called in for an appointment. During that appointment she reviewed those lab results again and did a quick physical examination. After the examination she told me that I might have leukemia.

Fast forward through a couple of years of just awful memories, physical pain, mental stress, money loss due to missing work because I was too sick to go, many appointments with specialists/doctors, x-rays (of specific areas), scans (of specific areas), sleepless nights, etc...(to summarize).

I became the 'mystery girl' according to the last hematologist I was seeing in Boston. They couldn't diagnose me with anything (due to stipulations/regulations by the WHO). Therefore no treatment and/or relief. Possibilities ranged from the original leukemia, to polycythemia vera (a rare blood cancer), to pheochromocytoma (a rare adrenal gland tumor), to paraganglioma (a rare adrenal gland tumor), etc. Symptoms and lab results pointed to those possibilities.

Blah, blah, blah...I started feeling better physically about a year ago. Had a CBC done as well as another 'specialty' test for the adrenal gland tumor possibilities and all came back within normal range aside from one of the adrenal gland tumor tests being slightly elevated, but still lower than the previous test for it. Slowly but surely over the past few or so months I have had the symptoms come back. Slowly at first, and they still aren't nearly as bad as they used to be, but they're getting pretty uncomfortable again.

Fast forward to this afternoon. I noticed (physically) a lump on the right side of my neck. Felt it. Definitely a noticeable lump. Felt other side. No lump. Repeated this back and forth between the two sides numerous times. There is absolutely a lump on the right side of my neck. A little below my ear and back a little bit past my jaw bone. Had my guy feel it and he too felt it. My mom stopped by just a little while ago so I asked her to feel it. Yep, she felt it and also said she could see it. Could be a lymph node, although I haven't been sick (had a cold) anytime recently.

Shit :\

I'm gonna call my PCP in the morning to schedule an appointment just to have her take a look. I've been in hiding from the doctors now for quite some time. I don't even want to start the weekly doctor appointments again. I can't. I can't afford to financially or emotionally. But I do know I need to have this looked at so I will do that much.

Prayers are welcomed and appreciated. Sorry for the wall of text.