Growing up... My mother was a school teacher...My father started the first high school for at-risk youth in this County called the Phoenix program. He was an officer in Vietnam. My Grandfather was a POW in WW2, and was a college professor for UWV after being on the Board of "Southern Bell" (Like an ATT type company before they got bought out) My grandmother ended up being an adjutant at USF.

My step father, after my father died, was also a public school teacher.

I'm an alcoholic who has been arrested 9 times who mooches off his father in law who dropped out of high school.

I went to vacations in Key West, Canada, Japan - Every winter and summer went on a vacation. Cruise ships. Season Tickets to sports events. Mother gets a new truck and car every 3 years.

I've been hired and fired from nearly 30 jobs. I'm the first person in my family not to go to college in generations.

So many opportunities I'm scared my son is going to miss... and I had this revelation that you need to dress for the job you want, not the one you have - and wearing suit and tie daily gives you self esteem, and just... makes you feel good. My wife supports it 100% -

My son is my world. He needs to be washed clean from the sins of his fathers being Masons and atheists - He needs to realize its not money that makes you happy but love and family (I grew up in a very broken home, as an only child no doubt... just... weird... weird weird weird) My son deserves nothing but PRAISE all the time. He is perfect. Everything he does is GREAT. If he needs improvement it comes from a source of love not judgement.

I'm not going to neglect him as my family did me, gave me a Macintosh Computer and $100 a week at age 14 while they got drunk on expensive whisky and never spoke - professional teachers while I could barely keep in school failing courses they freaking taught.

So... weird. Backwards.

My son deserves everything - and I'm going to provide that for him. First, he needs to know what a "family" really is, what "love" really is - He needs to be raised in Faith. Thank God his mother is well adjusted and popular and considers High School "amazing years" -

I am going to walk out Jesus's will for me, I'm going to stand under him so he gives me power and authority in this world. He will guide me to the right career, and he will guide me on how to properly raise my son away from Spirits of Addiction and Fear and Apathy.

This generational curse on the Cole family is OVER.

Amen. Amen. I'm done rambling. I'm watching baby all night so my wife can sleep since she did an amazing job Sunday getting this house in order.

Heh. I'm so busy looking for praise from Earthly father figures I forget about my heavenly father. *whoa thought*

Yup. All I need is Jesus, my family, and walking out his will.

I'm destined for great things. I know I am. I KNOW I AM. Jesus did not make TRASH.

I'm signing off before I Ramble too much all over the internet.

God bless,
love,
JKC III