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Message Subject Daily Prayer Thread !!!Plus The Word
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I posted awhile back about my dog Cuddles who was having health issues at almost 15. Sadly early this morning I had her put to sleep because of a deteriorating state and I felt it was time. The vet told me multiple times I was making the right decision, she was very weak, not eating and breathing somewhat labored. Her brother passed at almost 8 from lymphoma, too soon and very difficult time in my life. So even with some health issues, ears and arthritis mostly I know for a 77 lb dog 15 years is a blessing but I still wasn’t ready. There were things I still wanted to do with her but the vestibular issue limited many of these activities. But I loved her daily, kissed and hugged her all day, helped her eat....she loved four things in life, eating, sleeping, car rides and walks and we did the last two daily for the last 8 years.

The last couple years I’ve taken things day by day, kept my expectations limited considering her age and health issues. But overall her quality of life was high the last few years except for a few weeks. Well yesterday I cried all day and early this morning, then I went numb, empty inside. Took a nap and woke up shaking all over, whole body vibrating, every cell it seemed. And started to cry for no reason. I know someday it will get better but she really was my world. 15 years she was there every day, no vacations and I either took her with me to family stuff or I was back home in 12 hours or less. Not once ever did she pee or poop in the house, she was so good it was unbelievable. She looked to me always, especially these last few years she watched me around the house, would wake up if I walked in the room from another and go back to sleep...so special, so beautiful, her eyes told me everything she needed to say. We were bonded for life. So now I don’t know how to process it, I’m going back through dates and memories. Trying to remember all her patterns and habits. Luckily I started taking more pics and videos in recent years, many pics... I have another dog, who I got to keep her company when I was gone. He’s 8 now , I love him but he’s not Cuds and he’s not like her brother Bear either. But he’s a good dog, maybe not the soulfulness of Cuds but he’s mine and I love him. I just don’t know how to live without her...

I don’t have many friends, everyone knows me as the guy who drives his dogs around all over. I’m a guy so my few friends I know don’t really get where I’m at. I work from home most of the day now so it was a blessing the last 5 years or so spending so much time with her. I know how lucky i am that she made it this far but I’m hurting and I can’t process it. Everyday was built around her and her needs and then my work and chores. Someone once said losing a dog can be more painful than a family member because they are with you every day and many times family members are not in your daily lives. I totally understand, she was my life...To put into perspective I would have given her what’s left of my life if she could have lived on loved and without pain. I guess I’m just asking for suggestions, I’m not well...

R I P Cuddles and May you and Bear run free and wild where there’s no harm or pain. I pray your soul has gone straight to heaven.

From a few weeks ago, a pic after her vestibular issues kicked in, she was happy all the way even with her issues except for a few days the last couple weeks, yesterday included. [link to i.imgur.com]
 Quoting: Anonymous Coward 75592705


grouphugI have lost many and had to put down several it hurts very much. We are so sorry and only time heals the hurt thanks for sharing. I had a white golden retriever , loved that dog. She had cancer and no longer could eat I had to do the same. The bond we have with them is strong. My german shepherd that was raised with her looked for her every day ...Love to you and I pray the hole in your heart heals fast.hugs
 
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