Matthew 9

I have studied healing in Scriptures for years for my husband and his terrible disease. The one common theme in healing is faith and what God wants.
It was my answered prayer for my brother when I learned much about healing , suffering and death. The number one thing that needs healed is the soul. I had never met anyone much less knew someone that had a NDE. After my brother died I watched Heaven is for Real . I freaked out at how much that little boy said , that my brother had said, confirmation of all he told me.

Many have taught for generations that healing went out with the Apostles. I never understood how this happened but I know satan is happy. I guess they also do not teach ,1 Corinthians 12:9
to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healings by the same Spirit or the Spirit of God is in us.
Many have abused healing in the church for personal gain and made many no longer believe , again satan is happy.
I remember coming back with my Spirit on fire from my time with my brother and would go to hospitals and pray for the sick and dying , many times they died. I had to step back and study why things happen as they do. I focused all my attention on just healing of the body and then was directed to pain and suffering that brought glory to His name.
Paul had a pain that never healed that reminded him daily Who he belonged to.

2 Corinthians 12:7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure. 8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me. 9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
We are not a generation of taking pleasure in our infirmities. We are a generation of pain killers and focus on all energy on being well and not feeling pain.

Matthew 9: 35 And Jesus went about all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues, and preaching the gospel of the kingdom, and healing every sickness and every disease among the people.36 But when he saw the multitudes, he was moved with compassion on them, because they fainted, and were scattered abroad, as sheep having no shepherd. 37Then saith he unto his disciples, The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few; 38 Pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he will send forth labourers into his harvest.

We only have to look at church prayer request to know how sick we are , they where then as well.
I know every church was to have the gifts given in Scriptures but most churches know each others emails better than what their gifts are . One reason I have found is, the people themselves do not know what gifts they have . We make church about one person with a message , it was to never be that way. Corinthians 12 is just one place of gifts . Gifts, healing and sickness are all about His harvest, we just have to remember that. My faith has grown through my husband's sickness , together we have over come things few face .

One day God could take that terrible disease away but I have come to understand that can be while he lives or through death of the body, the soul is all that matters in the end...
Philippians 2:27 For indeed he was sick nigh unto death: but God had mercy on him; and not on him only, but on me also, lest I should have sorrow upon sorrow.
I have come to understand no matter what I want or think should happen, it is all about God. It is not the person with the gift of healing , it is not a medication , it is not anything other than what God wants. To embrace pain and suffering is what Jesus did for us.
It was 2 years ago when I got sick , I got on my knees with a pain that seemed unbearable. I told God He created my body and if He wanted me to suffer I would . I told Him if he wanted me to die I was ready. I spent years trying to do the opposite but now have a peace I never knew. If you fear pain, suffering or death call on Him that made you. Embrace what He wants not what we want...He knew what Paul needed , He knows what we need , we do not. The world says the opposite of 2 Corinthians 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
The message of the Cross tells us many things and one is even Jesus said this .
Matthew 26:39 And he went a little farther, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.
When we pray we need to do the same as Jesus did and embrace His answer, when we focus on our selves and what we want , we take our eyes off Him...We forget none of us suffered pain like Jesus did and He did not deserve it.
Luke 8: 43 And a woman having an issue of blood twelve years, which had spent all her living upon physicians, neither could be healed of any.

Are we spending all our time, money and energy trying to heal our bodies or souls???