Do not know where to start. You all have done so much when I have posted in the past. First with my wife and another with a friend. I hate to get on here and do this...heck, I am normally quiet and do not like to share, but I am in a rut.

Let me say, that my wifes surgery and all things related went well. She fully recovered and had zero complications.

Now that the surgery is over, she has changed. I can say that I have too, but god only knows what has happened. She has gone on a spending spree to he tune of over 25k on CC's She has been hiding this from me and does not want to tell me what she has bought or spent it on. When I have come to ask her she now says that I am being too invasive and controlling. I have bailed her out in the past when she did something similar, more than once.

The thing is that she has made it known that she does not want me touching her, being near her or anything. This is not the first time. She filed for divorce 2 times in the past and we reconciled and moved forward. This time she is stating that she wants to sell the house to cover her bills, allowing her to move out with the kids and that I wont have to put up with her or them ever again.

Now, maybe I am crazy in thinking that we can still make this work, but I am at a loss here. I want to be with my kids, unlike what she thinks. I have not touched a drink in 15 years (right before my son was born) I have picked up the bottle again as of 3 days ago. I have even considered sucking on lead or eating all of my old BP meds. I have not stopped crying (call me a bitch or baby or beta or whatever) I dont know what to do. I have prayed, but it seems like I am being ignored or I am missing what is being said.