Dark night for me emotionally. I prayed before bed and kept waking up all night. Not related to my heart or colon issues. I kept waking up just thinking about her. It was not dreams or visions, but I would just wake up and start crying again.

Me being upset is affecting me other ways, as expected. What i find odd is that after I prayed for a sign or vision yesterday afternoon I got a text from her asking how my appts went and if I was improving. I did not reply. I have been contemplating it, but have not.

Don't get me wrong. I still have the feels for her. We have been together 22 year. Is this Him telling me that we should work it out?

I guess what I am wondering ... his words state that marriage is a covenant. Isn't divorce a "bad" thing in His eyes?

I feel over the last few days after prayer that if we try to work it out again we would be in the same mess we are in now. She gave up on counseling more than once and refused to work on the things we needed.

Also, for the record. I called the church and had to leave a message with no return call. I called the family that drove me home last time and they could not take me due to a medical issue they are experiencing. I have not been able to go to church today.

Am I just reading int everything wrong here?
Isn't divorce frowned upon by HIM?
Am I just trying to hard to focus on more than one thing at a time? Yes, I am a burn the candle at both ends type of person. I have always been and it is hard for me to not multitask.

I am confused over everything.