it has been an odd few days since my last post.

I have been praying and the word "Reverence" keeps being played over and over in my daily routines. I woke up today with the last word in a dream being Reverence.

I know that HE is over all and in has a plan for everyone. It made me think today. Is God over my life? Or should I say am I allowing him to take control over my life? Is HE over every aspect of my life, from the every hair on my head to every word I speak? I look at through today and yesterday and I can say that I am struggling to allow this, and I will have to learn how to allow HIM to do this.

I want to thank everyone on here that has spoken life into me on here. I feel that everyone on here has been given the authority to boldly speak HIS words to one another and to each other.

It is a hard concept to grasp for me sometimes, but our Heavenly Father has me right where I am suppose to be. Again, this is not easy for me to grasp. Maybe that is why I am constantly getting the word Reverence presented to me. Oddly, I was watching a movie and paused it. When I returned to continue (about 10 minutes later) the word Reverence was the first word that was said.

I am also coming to grasps that God hears me speaking. He hears me saying things such as my life is crappy, my wife doesn't want to talk to me, my job sucks, my house is horrible...His response is: if you say so. You will feel how you speak and find what you seek. God spoke this world into existence. God spoke Jesus into our world. It is kinda humbling that God seems to give us that same power of speech. We can control our outcomes with the the power of our own words. It can unleash a forceful fury that can create, build, heal, hurt or tear down. I have come to the point now of not speaking negatively over issues in my daily life.

Yes, life can throw you curveballs, but if you look at it in a bad light I will be only propagating that negativity and just making it worse.

ONE last thing, other than reverence I am constantly hearing the song "Shout at the Devil" Not sure why.


In closing, thank you for the prayers and uplifting words. I want to say I am praying for you Tiger1 to find peace in your loss of the beloved friend AND comfort in your life with your surgery and upcoming Surgeries. I am praying for all of you, whether you need it or not.