Update.

Ok 75/25 and I am 75 for the children. She has to pay CS, half mortgage, back pay the 3 months of bills, pay the loan I took out for her and take it over completely by the EOM.

Kids are with me. I am beat. I had treatment yesterday and court today. It is today...just today.

Today was not a good day other than the above. I am dealing with the treatment. I am dealing with emotional crap due to the date. The short of it. I was suppose to be at GZ and missed my flight the night before, due to a fight with the wife then. I lost 3 friends that day and 6 coworkers. If it was not for that argument and missing my flight, my children would never have been born. I would not be here with you guys. I would not exist.

I know I should be happy, but I am not. I am depressed. It is the loss, talking to the wives and their children today.

Just been sitting here balling all day. It was bad in court when they wanted a moment of silence. Wife laughed at me in court after the moment of silence.

I hate today. I hate this day every effing year!

Sorry. Breakdown day for me.

Praying for everyone. Hope everyone has a good rest of day and night. I am going to feed the kids, get them ready for bed and sleep for the next few days if I can.