update.

On Monday my daughter decided to cut her arm up. 32 slashes on her arm at school. She then said she took a bunch of pills. Taken to ER. I got the call at work. Got home Monday night at 11pm. They pumped her stomach and fed her a ton of charcoal and on an IV.

There were over 30 suicide attempts in there. All children 12 yo and younger. We were sent home as they were full. The other facilities in the area are completely filled. I stayed up all night watching her. 7 monsters and a five hour energy. On the phone for most of tuesday and got her in a facility last night.

Today has been paperwork, sleep and chaos. She will be there for a week minimum and at min 6 weeks IOD/PHP. IOD/PHP is therapy through the day for 8 hours and then home at night.

Im at a loss. I sit here and think, wtf did I do wrong here? Where in the heck did I mess up?

I am about to hit the bed again. I am dead. I am beat.