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Did the same thing for over 2 years. Baby mama left me with our daughter and I just said fuck it, not having sex again nor dating. My happiness is steady all day, no ups and downs or outbursts of irritation. I wake up feeling alive and full of energy, no coffee. I still smoke about a pack a day to give myself time to pontificate.

All-in-all, there really is something metaphysical or spiritual about saving our sexual energies and pursuing better things.

Thanks Dex for explaining your journeys new point.
I'm not a follower of anyone particular but I enjoy American Priest. In the process of much the same discipline. Being older, most likely, and doing a month here and a month there of complete abstinence guess makes me used to the higher apprehension and unique perspectives. After time it takes longer periods of withholding to gain same heights. Any other suggestions.
_shaved head to lessen ego and attachment to self
_complete raw diet with no animal product
By the way don't work against wasteful energy work towards actions, rituals and behaviors that promote conservation.
And thanks for that thought, made me realize other things I do to waste energy!

Something that always rang for me

Not able to remember which book

"a child who is conceived without female orgasm will grow into an adult who is not worth a damn". - (paraphrasing) don juan matus









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Thanks for the tips and support guys, I really expected the idea to be ignored, period. In regards to my castenada readings...it is strange that as my energy increases, my perception increases....bits and peices of those books come back through my mind explaining the process, telling me what is what, it is a neat thing for sure. I have had a lot of weird experiences in my life, one thing I remember about having a shaved head or very short hair was that having my head in direct sunlight I felt like I was absorbing magnetic energy...this may have just been heat and imagination, but I generally have short hair, not shaved though. Regarding the kid created without orgasm, yes, I remember something like that too, not sure which one it was in, but something to the extent that the kids that are created with the most passion are the cream of the crop, while kids created from bad/sloppy/selfish/passionless/orgasmless sex were...i dont think useless was the word, but certainly not become star players in any arena.

Back to the situation at hand, I feel lucky in that I have been a lucid dreamer for so long, I can't have sex in a dream. I just cant, the person fades, I realize it's a dream, I WANT it to be real and forget what I know, but...then either I wake up, or the dream shifts into something else. I can sustain objects in my dreams for long periods of time, I have been practicing for 20+ years...but I cannot, in a dream, hold eye contact with any being in the dream without it shifting into something else...this could be a person, or animal, it is the same, something about looking things in the eye in a dream ;)

It was more of a realization for me quite by accident that sexual energy being saved really affects a person. I discovered it a few years ago, but didnt understand then. I was just so hot for someone, I didn't want to "break the spell" because I thought she was into me as well...so I abstained from beating off to thinking of her (so that whatever in me creates stuff doesnt think I have what I want yet) and with anyone else (so that that same creative force didnt think I wanted that hot little porn slut in my real life)...after about 30 days my situation changed and ...well I caved in, but in my defense, it was my objective that caved me, I wasnt really attempting anything....but surely enough once I started busting a nut regularly, it was "back to retardsville" with me....and for 3 years I thought it was all because I was "so happy" it was my happiness changing me. I remember back then towards the 30 day mark I was "tripping". Not hallucinations tripping, but really seeing the whole thing from a cosmic vantage point through my regular eyes tripping...oh and I was happy, just radiantly happy. I am pretty happy now, "aint got no distractions, cant hear no buzzers and bells, dont see no lights a flashin, plays by sense of smell, always gets the replay, never seen him fall, that deaf dumb and blind kid...."

...sure plays a mean pinball...


the very fact you are sitting at a computer...fingering your thoughts, shows you have a long path ahead. The key is patience, with a healthy dose of laughter.

Intent is felt, not described.

reading the first three books starting with the third. little carlos kinda goes off the reservation after the third.

the goal of a warrior is too hook a SINGLE luminous fiber and ride it for all its worth.


The gait of power, just looks silly but, it works.

as for the abstaining from sex - what ever works.


sincerely,

a petty tyrant LOL


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