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Anonymous Coward User ID: 13884318 United States 06/18/2016 10:17 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Facts - can you please expand on this - Quoting: Starbird There are those in your life you are never meant to connect with, so that you will look back and feel the missed opportunity and be forced to accept what caused it. There is an important lesson in that experience. What's to expand on? I thought it was pretty concise. What stuck out to me was - 1. Those in your life never meant to connect with 2. You will look back and feel missed opportunity (Can you feel me? I am asking you straight. Help me see what you are trying to say) If we are honest with ourselves how many times have we looked back and realized we avoided someone for the wrong reasons? Even invented reasons to validate our actions towards this person to avoid what that person really represented to you? A threat to something you held sacred. A door you decided you will never open. After time passes you dealt with those things finally and look back at what the prejudices and fears you used to have cost you. Including relationships with ppl you no longer think of as bad or hurtful. Because you see them with new eyes after one of life's paradigm shifts. You imagine what could have been and what you could gave experienced and learned had you not blocked them out. You realize you were not ready for that person and there is only one of them. The opportunity lost forever to connect with that mind and what you might have known earlier if you did. In that feeling of regret is a lesson. Thank you, sincerely. Your expanded explanation - has impact. Actually I have been fed a huge feast to sup on twice in this thread in just the past few pages. Koans. |
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Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 72332400 United States 06/18/2016 10:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Sometimes I think that it may whither from non-use. Or that I will forget how to do it. Quoting: Seer777 But then it comes back and like they say, it's like riding a bicycle. The energy is so dynamic for me, that it expresses in a multitude of ways that I occasionally forget about. Then it happens again and I remember. Like oh yeah, I haven't felt that in a while. The rib thing is kinda like that, but that happens too often to forget about. If that makes sense. I find I do it better after forgetting about it. Like finding a toy you lost and loved, it feeling like new again once found. Nostalgia fuels new and better weilding. I like it because I can recall back when it use to happen, what I thought about it then, whether it scared me or not, then go from there. Things that use to scare me, don't anymore. Wow, I just felt like skies cleared and all the stars came out. Yes Seer, thank you. Happy to help. :) ... Quoting: Seer777 Sometimes I think that it may whither from non-use. Or that I will forget how to do it. But then it comes back and like they say, it's like riding a bicycle. The energy is so dynamic for me, that it expresses in a multitude of ways that I occasionally forget about. Then it happens again and I remember. Like oh yeah, I haven't felt that in a while. The rib thing is kinda like that, but that happens too often to forget about. If that makes sense. I find I do it better after forgetting about it. Like finding a toy you lost and loved, it feeling like new again once found. Nostalgia fuels new and better weilding. I like it because I can recall back when it use to happen, what I thought about it then, whether it scared me or not, then go from there. Things that use to scare me, don't anymore. Courage is its own armor. Some courage is learned not in bred. [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 64803050 United States 06/18/2016 10:30 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | What stuck out to me was - 1. Those in your life never meant to connect with 2. You will look back and feel missed opportunity (Can you feel me? I am asking you straight. Help me see what you are trying to say) If we are honest with ourselves how many times have we looked back and realized we avoided someone for the wrong reasons? Even invented reasons to validate our actions towards this person to avoid what that person really represented to you? A threat to something you held sacred. A door you decided you will never open. After time passes you dealt with those things finally and look back at what the prejudices and fears you used to have cost you. Including relationships with ppl you no longer think of as bad or hurtful. Because you see them with new eyes after one of life's paradigm shifts. You imagine what could have been and what you could gave experienced and learned had you not blocked them out. You realize you were not ready for that person and there is only one of them. The opportunity lost forever to connect with that mind and what you might have known earlier if you did. In that feeling of regret is a lesson. Thank you, sincerely. Your expanded explanation - has impact. Actually I have been fed a huge feast to sup on twice in this thread in just the past few pages. Koans. YW |
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anonlove1 User ID: 71570953 United States 06/18/2016 10:48 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hello. Thanks. Today was rather successful all things considered. Did you have a previous handle I would recognize? I see you know Dion. TRAL Hey Facts - how's it going? Howdy. It's good. Life is as life does. Or is that backwards? Lol! I have no clue at the moment... I guess I'll have to ask on that one, if there even is an answer to that. I just have a bit of a time wrapping my head around the time thing. I think I maybe used to get it but I'm not sure. Where linear comes from in this dimension versus elsewhere I don't quite have a grasp of. Hopefully I will soon. I'll have to ask on that too I think. You have any ideas? Anyone else?? |
Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 72332400 United States 06/18/2016 10:54 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hello. Thanks. Today was rather successful all things considered. Did you have a previous handle I would recognize? I see you know Dion. TRAL Hey Facts - how's it going? I don't recall a TRAL. Were you on the X thread? Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
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anonlove1 User ID: 71570953 United States 06/18/2016 11:03 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hello. Thanks. Today was rather successful all things considered. Did you have a previous handle I would recognize? I see you know Dion. TRAL Hey Facts - how's it going? I don't recall a TRAL. Were you on the X thread? Those were initials. Yes, X and others. |
Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 72332400 United States 06/18/2016 11:07 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ... Quoting: Seer777 Hello. Thanks. Today was rather successful all things considered. Did you have a previous handle I would recognize? I see you know Dion. TRAL Hey Facts - how's it going? I don't recall a TRAL. Were you on the X thread? Those were initials. Yes, X and others. I see. I can't seem to put it together quite yet. I'm usually pretty good with these things. Good to hear. Welcome back. Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
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K-lis User ID: 972230 United States 06/18/2016 11:46 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I asked a friend over the phone- Quoting: Starbird "What would you do if you woke up and discovered nothing you believed was true?" I was serious. She didn't know what I was talking about. When you think like this you are alone. Thankfully for my temperament alone fits. K-lisCylus? We talked about this stuff you and I - through email. What happened to you? Do you remember - ? Hey...you aren't still around are you? I'm sorry. I suddenly got really tired and I had to take a nap. Sort of weird. I remember we talked on my thread. Did we email too? Ahh...Little Bird. You should have said so earlier...of course I remember you. We talked when I first started coming here it feels like... Last Edited by Caylus Ark on 06/18/2016 11:53 PM |
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Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 72332400 United States 06/19/2016 03:19 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Just random stuff I come across. Do you imgur? Imgur can take me from choking in laughter one second, to tearing up the next. Can make for an interesting ride. Highly recommend. [link to imgur.com (secure)] Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 72422590 United States 06/19/2016 03:25 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | i think ive always wanted to. What do i do? Just press Next? I cant control what happens?! How random is it? Is it in a specific order start/finish? i know youll like this one! [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 72332400 United States 06/19/2016 03:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | i think ive always wanted to. What do i do? Just press Next? I cant control what happens?! How random is it? Is it in a specific order start/finish? i know youll like this one! [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] Imgur is a image/gif sharing site. This is called 'Front Page.' It is constantly changing. These are 'most viral' at the moment. [link to imgur.com] If you click a thumbnail it will take you to the post. If you hit the > arrow, it will take you to the next post. YOu can thumbs up or thumbs down. I have an accout so I am not sure if there are ads or not. The comments often make the post, but not always. Very clever people are often super funny. Not all of it is funny...so be aware of that. Here are the last few things I've 'favorited' in the last several days. Old peoples when they were young peoples [link to imgur.com] have you heard... [link to imgur.com] History, lest we forget! [link to imgur.com] What Does Drowning Look Like? [link to imgur.com] Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
K-lis User ID: 63763615 United States 06/19/2016 04:20 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I was never consciously suicidal before it happened....and ever since I'm lucky to go a week without seriously actually wanting to die , without having episodes of randomly breaking down hysterically crying, trying to make sense of it. Not wanting to cause my mom trauma is the only reason I haven't killed myself already. I'm a shadow of the person I used to be, and no therapist alive would be able to listen to me talking and actually help. I make the best of whatever the fuck I can scrape together to convince myself to continue living with myself. Thats not how Caylus was alright...even the sleeping pill thing, that was seriously an accident...Caylus felt like she could do anything, she was never suicidal or a bundle of wrecked nerves... Quoting: K-lis I am not the person I used to be... If it's all a lie I was fucked with deliberately, maybe I am better served believing it - but you know what, I know it's true even despite that. And at the end of it all, guess what. We are truly alone. Look. No matter what, I care about you and I am on your side. I know the healthy, vibrant, brilliant young woman I once talked to every day, is still in there. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, there are resources to help you cope. The suicide hotline, now has a text based form for those unwilling to talk on the phone. I don't think there are professionals out there with the right qualifications to deal with my problems. If anything I am convinced they would only make things worse. A good friend of mine once told me he suspected I was one of the rare kind of people who would sink or swim of her own accord because...I am just too odd to be helped by normal professionals. I would have to find my own way, this friend suspected. I think he was right. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 72422590 United States 06/19/2016 04:26 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I don't think there are professionals out there with the right qualifications to deal with my problems. Quoting: K-lis You say this over and over and over. Maybe its you. Maybe your not ready to face the problem? Maybe your not ready to deal with it? What if no one can ever 'deal with your problems' Are you gonna be messed up forever Because of what no one else can do? |
Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 72332400 United States 06/19/2016 04:32 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I was never consciously suicidal before it happened....and ever since I'm lucky to go a week without seriously actually wanting to die , without having episodes of randomly breaking down hysterically crying, trying to make sense of it. Not wanting to cause my mom trauma is the only reason I haven't killed myself already. I'm a shadow of the person I used to be, and no therapist alive would be able to listen to me talking and actually help. I make the best of whatever the fuck I can scrape together to convince myself to continue living with myself. Thats not how Caylus was alright...even the sleeping pill thing, that was seriously an accident...Caylus felt like she could do anything, she was never suicidal or a bundle of wrecked nerves... Quoting: K-lis I am not the person I used to be... If it's all a lie I was fucked with deliberately, maybe I am better served believing it - but you know what, I know it's true even despite that. And at the end of it all, guess what. We are truly alone. Look. No matter what, I care about you and I am on your side. I know the healthy, vibrant, brilliant young woman I once talked to every day, is still in there. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, there are resources to help you cope. The suicide hotline, now has a text based form for those unwilling to talk on the phone. I don't think there are professionals out there with the right qualifications to deal with my problems. If anything I am convinced they would only make things worse. A good friend of mine once told me he suspected I was one of the rare kind of people who would sink or swim of her own accord because...I am just too odd to be helped by normal professionals. I would have to find my own way, this friend suspected. I think he was right. You may be surprised Kayli. You can still find your own way. Sometimes people just need a helping hand. Or to know someone is there that cares and will listen. Have you considered you are struggling with depression? [link to s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com (secure)] Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
K-lis User ID: 63763615 United States 06/19/2016 04:35 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I was never consciously suicidal before it happened....and ever since I'm lucky to go a week without seriously actually wanting to die , without having episodes of randomly breaking down hysterically crying, trying to make sense of it. Not wanting to cause my mom trauma is the only reason I haven't killed myself already. I'm a shadow of the person I used to be, and no therapist alive would be able to listen to me talking and actually help. I make the best of whatever the fuck I can scrape together to convince myself to continue living with myself. Thats not how Caylus was alright...even the sleeping pill thing, that was seriously an accident...Caylus felt like she could do anything, she was never suicidal or a bundle of wrecked nerves... Quoting: K-lis I am not the person I used to be... If it's all a lie I was fucked with deliberately, maybe I am better served believing it - but you know what, I know it's true even despite that. And at the end of it all, guess what. We are truly alone. Look. No matter what, I care about you and I am on your side. I know the healthy, vibrant, brilliant young woman I once talked to every day, is still in there. If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, there are resources to help you cope. The suicide hotline, now has a text based form for those unwilling to talk on the phone. I don't think there are professionals out there with the right qualifications to deal with my problems. If anything I am convinced they would only make things worse. A good friend of mine once told me he suspected I was one of the rare kind of people who would sink or swim of her own accord because...I am just too odd to be helped by normal professionals. I would have to find my own way, this friend suspected. I think he was right. You may be surprised Kayli. You can still find your own way. Sometimes people just need a helping hand. Or to know someone is there that cares and will listen. Have you considered you are struggling with depression? [link to s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com (secure)] Oh yeah, I mean I know that I am now. But who wouldn't be after everything in their life fell apart? I don't want to go on SSRIs or anything like that though... |
K-lis User ID: 63763615 United States 06/19/2016 04:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I don't think there are professionals out there with the right qualifications to deal with my problems. Quoting: K-lis You say this over and over and over. Maybe its you. Maybe your not ready to face the problem? Maybe your not ready to deal with it? What if no one can ever 'deal with your problems' Are you gonna be messed up forever Because of what no one else can do? How the hell would I even talk about the kind of stuff I've described without sounding crazy? I'll just be sent to the looney farm again... |
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