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Understood. So it makes up who you consider yourself to be. Truthfully, there is a you that exists without that. Like the girl in metropolis. If you're the robot, it is what it is. It's just who has the controller?

They say the atman is what animates the ego. That is where its power lies. As they say a dog wags its tail but the tail does not wag the dog, lol


The atman is spirit (brahman) – unchanging, eternal and conscious. Consciousness, as spread throughout the body, is a symptom of the soul.

They say what really exists is the brahman. There is no discovery, only uncovering. It is the sleep and the dream in the seat of the mind. The ultimate cause of all emotional wounds is our separation of the atman, our true nature.

Learned helplessness can lead to a robot like demeanor.

Severe depression isn't sadness. It is the absence of being able to feel anything.


'Hyperbole and a Half' got brought up at the party on Sunday.

Allie had the funniest blog I ever read several years ago. But she was devastated by depression and did 2 amazing blogs on said.

Still not sure if she ever got back on the horse.


The links are banned here, but you can find them if you Google:

Hyperbole and a Half: Adventures in Depression part 1 and 2.

Her earlier comics, were some of the funniest things I ever read.

I recommend 'Dog'. And 'God of Cake'.

Choronzon is what animate the Ego. And then he will facilitate you to destroy it, due to people's weakness to temptation.

Lead me not into temptation...and deliver me from evil.


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Have you ever heard what happened to Crowley when he invoked Chor....? That will tell the story I think.

You will be offered the world in way of the 7 Deadly to snare you in a trap. Temptation.

Lead me not into temptation...

They say the atman is what animates the ego. That is where its power lies. As they say a dog wags its tail but the tail does not wag the dog, lol


The atman is spirit (brahman) – unchanging, eternal and conscious. Consciousness, as spread throughout the body, is a symptom of the soul.

They say what really exists is the brahman. There is no discovery, only uncovering. It is the sleep and the dream in the seat of the mind. The ultimate cause of all emotional wounds is our separation of the atman, our true nature.

Choronzon is what animate the Ego. And then he will facilitate you to destroy it, due to people's weakness to temptation.

Lead me not into temptation...and deliver me from evil.


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Where does choronzon lie? Near the horizon. Egyptians call that akhet. Similar story of the Egyptian journey resurrecting the akh.

I read both halves of depression and they were both well done. The timing of this is pretty good considering what I told you this weekend. Being a machine, having no emotion, getting facial expressions wrong during conversation I'm familiar with. Granted, not because of depression because of possession but I'm aware of the gutting process. Every attack takes some humanity with it.

Esoterically, she has her moment in the video store, then gets 6 videos, red star pattern skittles, lights on "nope," submissive posturing. Spider motiff.

The toys are good (my schoolbus, with me in it), fox, swim a "lake," horse and etc. The second one is more heavily coded.lots of examples in what she says, really continuous. I'll have to see the rest.

Where does choronzon lie? Near the horizon. Egyptians call that akhet. Similar story of the Egyptian journey resurrecting the akh.

It's a black hole. The event horizon or 'point of no return'. Once it gets a hold of you, it will swing you around and around and around until it eventually swallows you, or you manage to make it across.

You;re never the same either way.

And some of the coins they put in the mouths of the dead to pay charon use the gorgon head.

Genesha and john the baptist come to mind too.

The nature of time, space, dimension, planes, memory is blowing my mind, lol
To the unaware, everyday is a normal occurrence within the acceptable forms of reality taught in society as normal. But to the waking aware, they notice what they call time line distortions or memories that didn't happen like it did happen and even experienced the sensations of it happening. Taking that a step further from memories and into visuals.
Theory so far is matter isn't what is taught in school. Neither is time/space, thought/memory, well just about everything. Just like consciousness can go into many planes of existance, so can matter and does so with slight of hand to the unaware. Almost want to say the realm of truth is the bearing and shows where you are and when you are, since matter is transient.

In and out is breathing, which is the basis of life and movement like the drum beat of the heart. So it is common sense really to say matter beats in and out of matter. So, how to teleport with memory intact? Be aware of it but don't look at it. Like the gorgon, and like the particles. If you look, behavior changes and memory is lost.

That is why they tell of the gorgon. Keeps temptations away.

Oh, if gorgon head means when passing through gehenna all temptations when looking at you they turn to stone. It is a defense.

Can't figure 'eat the bread that once was stone', hmmm

I see it.

The tempter came to him and said, "If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread."
Matthew 4:3

But, the Egyptians did not account for the beast or the false prophet. The gorgon here is Ammit, who judges the dead by a lake of fire.