I was watching something that was recommended to me, which is

Its called sacrificial by Rezz, and it was released on march 25th, the same day I finally left that hellhole of a punishment.
At the end of this video, the explorer in the astronaut suit destroys a reptilian idol in space and dissolves into water and a void of floating rocks, at which point a frame cuts to a blue butterfly hovering on the astronauts arm. In the last few seconds, as the singer ends the song with
For you
Baby, it's official, this is sacrificial
For you, oh
For you, oh
Baby, we're competing with a sacrifice

You see the astronaut centered in the screen with a massive flurry of blue butterflies bursting from their chest. Thats the last of the video. The whole video struck me but the fact I had just deleted blue monarch and was released on that day is almost uncanny in strangeness. Something I am not sure if I feel good or bad about. Is it possible to feel both in equal measure without creating a contradiction?
I sometimes thing this dualistic ability is one of the psychic sensitivity, that if not properly guided can become a mental illness, but when directed well can be a big asset in many domains.